I love Phil. I love him. I never realized until now. He looked beautiful, even with the pink burns wraping around his ear. I set the back of my hand on his unburnt cheek. What did you ever do to deserve this? You are a good person Phil. It should have been me. No, I think its better this way. Knowing how much he loves me, I would never want him to go through the pain I feel right now. If it was me on that bus, he would be feeling this way. I can never bear that pain on sweet, inosent Phil.
His skin was still baby soft dispite comimg out of surgery after a car accident. PJ was almost crying, and was silent. He hadn't said anything since I confesed my love. Standing in the corner, it was almost like he wasn't here. One hand on Phil, another clutching his hand, I sobbed. I cried on the edge of the bed until PJ calmed me down.
"Dan, why don't we go get a coffee." PJ suggested. "There's a Starbucks within walking distance."
"Sure." I whimpered.
We walked to the coffee shop around the corner and ordered our drinks.
"9 pounds." The barista said.
"I'll pay you back Peej." I said when PJ handed over the bill.
"No, I'll take care of it. You've had a rough day."
I played with the straw of my iced tea as we sat at one of the bar taables lining the window.
"He didn't smell like Phil." I said. "He smells like fake hospitalness. I don't like it."
"Well, he is in a hospital, so I wouldn't imagine why he would smell like that." PJ said sarcasticly. I laughed for what felt like the first time in ages.
When we got back to the hospital, nothing had changed. By then, it was almost 9 o'clock.
"Why don't i drive you home." PJ said. "You could use some genuine rest. I'll stay here overnight. I'll call you if anything happens."
"Thanks Peej." I mumbled.
The ride home was mostly silent besides the faint traces of radio static. When I stepped up to the door of my flat, it was almost like everything in the world was forgotton. I opened the door and called out for Phil. Phil wasn't here you idiot. Dan, you need to get a hold of yourself. Deep breaths. I took a quick shower and crawled under my black covers.
Two hours passed, and I was still awake. I can't handle the fact that Phil wasn't on the other side of the wall next to me. Still not able to sleep, I decided to wander into Phil's room and sleep on his floor. Still awake. His bed? Under his green covers, I felt like I was safe. The smell of his soap lingered on his cotton sheets. It smelled like I was at home, where i was suppose to be. This was where i needed to be. Where the universe wanted me to be. Thats when my phone rang.
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-Abigail
