[NO REQUESTS]Book Of One Shots (Youtubers I know really) Minecraft and anime

I Cant Sleep

It's so hard for me to sleep I have so much on my mind and I have insomnia and am deadly afraid of the dark.I have to figure out my own phobias myself because I can't tell my mom or else she'll put me on some more weird pills.My insomnia probably came from my pills and at night I feel like I'm going to die because of the dark.And if I manage together to sleep it would take me about 2 hours to actually get to sleep.And I sleep having nightmares every night.Night is better than day in my opinion,but when your afraid of the dark it's hard.I needed to tell someone about this because it's been on my nerves lately.Its just stressful and I have to start waking up early for school will be starting soon.I have so many damn things on my mind and I'm afraid to be alone so that's apart of the problem to.My room is upstairs in the attic and I have to walk down two flights of stairs if there was a fire because no fire ladder.So basically I'm screwed if there was a fire.And I almost died in this hell house from random people shooting my house.Almost got a bullet to the head when I was sleeping.Thats just great.The stress is coming to me now of all nights.Im scared and feel alone.I need help.I need somebody to help me.I sound selfish but I'm really scared.Im legit crying now .This is not a joke for me,I'm petrified and feel alone and I'm dieing on the inside.I need some advice if you can give me some I would be very grateful.And the heat isn't helping.My sanity is slowly disappearing as I write and the more noise I hear the more unstable I feel.Im sorry if you read this.After all this is a me problem not a you problem I'll try and get as much chapters out if I can.Im truly and deeply sorry to waste your time.~Kyra