crash and burn

z a n e

Park Slope, Brooklyn

House of Mark and Tamara Taylor

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Another day, another house party. I sit on a white leather couch high on cocaine that another party goer supplied. The girl next to me smokes some weed that the same guy brought. "Hey, watch the joint, Marley. I don't need weed stains on that deeply expensive leather couch. Okay?" Derek Taylor said to the girl sitting beside me. The girl just nodded slowly and smiled at Derek. She's so high she can barely think straight. She probably didn't even hear what he said.

I stand swaying on my feet before regaining my balance. I take a step forward and make my way towards the throng of sweaty bodies standing in the middle of the massive living room. People dance and grind on one another in what looks like an uncomfortable manner, but they don't seem to care one bit. They're all either stoned or drunk or both. I grab a drink of some sort from the kitchen. I sip it and it burns when it goes down, but I ignore it. I'm used to the burn. Its exhilarating. I sip my drink gingerly and sway back and forth to the thumping music that fills my ears. Everything is loud and the room is spinning, but I ignore that too. I'm excited and ecstatic about something, but I'm not really sure what to be perfectly honest. That's when I notice Kaito or Kai for short making his way towards me.

"Hi, baby," I say and I don't know why. Kai and I aren't dating or anything like that. It just seems right to call him baby. He's my baby. He's hot. I never really realized it before now, but he is damn sexy. It makes me want to wrap my arms around him and kiss every single part of his beautiful body. Kai smiles at me and I know he's drunk. His arm wraps around my waist and he pulls me to his chest.

"Hey, Zane," he says in my ear in a low tone. The way he says my name causes shivers to run down my spine. He slurs the sentence, but I don't mind. I lower my hand to his bum and squeeze causing him to jump slightly in surprise. I just giggle hiding my face behind my hands like a little child. He looks me up and down tantalizingly slow stopping every once in awhile to stare at something that he likes. He smacks my bum and I squeal running away from him and out the back door. He chases after me. He's close on my heels. He grabs my waist and hoists me over his shoulder. I squeal and beg him to put me down, but he won't. He turns around and carries me back into the party. He carries me up a flight of stairs and into a long hallway with doors lining either side. He puts me down and opens up the first door. Inside I see Orion and Kaleb making out while Kaleb's hand is trailing up her shirt. Kai whistles and their heads snap towards the door.

"Kaito!" Orion shouts. "Zane, go away!"

"We'll leave you two lovebirds be," I say pulling the door shut. Kai and I run down the hallway giggling to each other. I knew Kaleb and Orion were serious, but I didn't know they were already fucking. Orion never tells me anything. I always thought she was such a prude, but I guess I was wrong. Suddenly Kai pushes me up against the wall and kisses me roughly, hungrily, lustfully. His tongue begs for entrance and I oblige.

"You're so hot," he says against my lips and I smile against his lips.

"Come on," I say grabbing his hand and pulling him into another room. This one is a large bedroom with a king sized bed against the wall opposite the door. I step in pulling along behind me. He shuts the door and lifts me up once more carrying me over to the bed. As he carries me he kisses and bites down my neck and across my collar bone. I breathe heavily. His legs hit the bed and he lowers me down. I crawl up the bed and he follows me on his hands and knees. Then there's a knock on the door and Kai groans. He gives me an apologetic smile before getting up off the bed and making his way over to the door. He opens it.

"Kian," Kai says to one of his brothers. "What can I do for you this fine evening?"

"We're leaving. Jude doesn't want to stay any longer," Kian says and then he notices me lying on the bed. "What are you two up to in here?" I blush and Kai gives Kian a triumphant smile.

"Nothing," I say at the same time Kai says, "Fucking."

I cover my face with my hands. Their faces blur and I see two of Kian. "Come on you two. Its time to go now." Kai nods and I push myself off the bed. Before Kai can leave I grab his arm and pull him towards me. I kiss him softly, passionately, sexily.

"To be continued," I whisper in his ear feeling him shiver beneath my finger tips. I walk past him making sure to sway my hips as I walk.

"You tease," I hear him say behind me and I smile. I walk down the stairs and over to where Kanaan, Kaleb, Kian, Orion, Lotte and Jude are standing together.

"I'm driving," I tell them and they all nod. We're all stoned or drunk or both, but nobody bothers to object to me driving home. We head outside. I walk next to Orion. I bump her elbow with my elbow and wag my eyebrows at her. Her eyes go wide and she blushes bright red.

"Shut up," I hear her mumble.

"Tell me all about it when we get home, okay?" She just nods wanting me to drop the subject. We all clamor into the car that barely fits all eight of us. I turn on the car and drive away from the house and the blinding lights and blaring music. We make our way down the highway and that's when my vision goes. Somebody shouts at me and there's a high pitched scream and I swerve. I slam on the brakes not able to see where I'm going. I try to maneuver the car swerving left and right, but its to late.

The world is cold and silent and black as I tumble into the void abyss. I am thrown towards death. I don't fight it. I accept it and I let it take me hoping that the pain will end shortly there after.