My poetry and songs

12/30/10 11:32pm

As I sit

Holding my bear

Of many bloody tears

Past I think to myself

If I had done it

Who's life would have changed

Would the tears still be bloody

Would any one care

The music of salvation plays

Keeping my body calm

Keeping my mind steady at thought

As my heart beats faster

If I had done it

Would anyone still know my name

Would my friends and family remember

Me as who I was or

What I did to myself

I slowly let my tears of bloodshed

Fall I realize

If I had done it

I vwouldnt have what I have today

If I had done it

I wouldn't ever get my chance

I wouldn't know happiness ever again

I wouldn't get a second chance

For my life

For trust

For love

For family

I would have hurt my sisters and brothers

I would have never made it to Shangri- La

I would have shown pure cowardess

I would have nothing

If I did

I would wander the earth

Uncertain of everything

Unable to help anymore

I'm just glad I didn't

Do something that's

Absoultly horendous

I'm glad I never killed myself