Real Love

The Funeral Trigger Warning

Tamara's P.O.V
I could feel myself falling further and further down the hole and as hard as I tried I could get up.
I could feel the life draining from my suicidal body.
"Tamara honey! Wake up! It's just a bad dream" my mum said, rushing into the room.
Suddenly I woke up screaming.
"There gone mum! I have nothing left" I cried into her shoulder.
"You have so much left to live for Tamara! Please! They'd want you to be happy, they wouldn't want to see you like this" she said, tears welling up in her eyes.
"Can you not see mum? I'm a danger to everyone around me! I don't deserve to be here! It should be of been me who died in the car crash! I wish I died instead of them"! I screamed, throwing a glass lamp at the wall.
"Calm down" my mum said, taking a step away from me.
That's when my two older brothers came rushing in.
Cameron who's 18, and Jack who's 20.
I picked up a massive chunk of glass and was about to slice my neck open.
"Tamara. Please just put the glass down" Cameron said.
Jack started walking towards me.
"Get back jack! I don't want to hurt you as well" I shouted.
"This isn't you. Tom wouldn't want this and neither would skylar" he said.
Tom was my boyfriend, and Skylar was my best friend.
Notice the word 'was'?
Yeah, that's because they died.
In a car crash.
Just hearing there names out loads made me collapse to the floor.
Cameron and Jack both ran over to me whilst my mum grabbed the piece of glass of the floor.
I started sobbing into Jacks shoulder.
"It's okay. It's all gonna be okay " he whispered in my ear.
But he was wrong. Nothing was going to be okay.
Because tomorrow?
Tomorrow I have to bury and talk at the two most important people in my life's funeral.

8 hours later

I was woken up by the sound of my alarm clock.
In a few hours, I will be saying goodbye to Tom and Skylar forever.
And nothing hurt me more.
There was a knock on the door just as I was getting ready.
"Come in" I said.
It was Jack.
"The car's are going to be here any minute, are you ready"? He said.
And by cars, he meant the ones that would be carrying the lifeless bodies of my two friends.
I nodded.
I was lying.
I will never, ever be ready for this.
But I have to do it.
Not just for me, for them.
All I want is to feel the touch of Tom's lips and the kindness and calm soothing tone of Skylar's voice.
That's why I new what I had to do.
I knew how to make myself be happy again.
I was going to join them.
As soon as the funeral was done, I'm going to commit suicide......

Luke's P.O.V
"Guys? Why are there loads of funeral cars driving past"! Ashton said, walking through the door holding the mail.
"Did you not hear"? I replied.
"Here what"? He asked.
"There was a car crash two weeks ago involving three people, two girls and one boy. Two of them died and only one girl survived, they where her best friend and boyfriend, I think her names Tamara, I don't know" Calum explained walking into the room.
"Should we go outside and pay our respects"? Ashton asked.
We all agreed on going outside and showing the family and the friends of the people who died out support.
When we got outside, there was one girl that caught my eye.
"That's her! That's the girl who was in the car crash but didn't die" I whispered in the boys ears.
They all looked over at her.
She had bags under her eyes and tears streaming down her face.
She noticed us staring, and this seemed to make her cry even more.
"Maybe we should go inside" I said, not wanting to upset her anymore than we already have.
"Agreed" we all said.
When we where in the privacy of our own home, I spoke up.
"Did you see her? She looked so drained "!
"That's what happens when you loose two people you love" Michael replied.
"I guess" I replied.
But there was something about the girl that worried me.
I didn't know what it was.

Tamara's P.O.V
When we arrived at the altar, we all took our places.
The music started playing and soon, both the coffins where being carried down the isle.
All I could think about was Skylar's dream wedding and how she wouldn't get to have it.
The plans me and Tom had made for the future that we wouldn't share.
When the music stopped, the vicar stood up.
"Now, I would like to read a poem written by Jonathan James" he said.
"They're gone
You can shed tears that they're gone, or you can smile because they have lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that they will come back, or you can open your eyes and see all that they have left.
You can be empty because you can't see them, or you can be full of the love that you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember them and only that they are gone, or you can cherish they're memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back, or do what they would have wanted: Smile, Open Your Eyes, Love And Go On."

"Next to speak, is Skylar's best friend and Tom's girlfriend, Tamara" he said.
I started feeling sick and started getting the sweats.
"I can't do this" I said, getting up and running out the altar.
I got the main road a few minutes after running from the church.
This is where I'm going to do it.
This is where I'm going to end my life.
I saw car lights coming from the distance.
There was no time to think.
I walked in the road, and when the car was a few feet away from me, I felt someone push me out the way.

Luke's P.O.V
When all the boys went to get some dinner, I couldn't.
I wasn't in the mood to eat knowing what happened to the poor girl.
I decided to go for a walk to clear my head.
It was really, really dark.
As I was walking past the church, I saw the same girl I did earlier, running out of it.
I started to run after her.
But boy was she fast.
When I eventually caught up with her, she was standing in the road, with a car coming in her direction.
I immediately ran into the road and pushed her out of the way.
"Why would you do that! Let me die! I want to die"!! She screamed.
Wow, these people must of meant a lot to her....