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Song Recommendation: Never Be Alone by Shawn Mendes or Paper Hearts by Tori Kelly :)

Tears began to spill from my eyes and stood up from Louis' bed. I left the letter on the same place I got it. I went downstairs, and luckily I saw his mom sleeping on the couch so I wouldn't have to explain myself from crying again. I left her a note on the table saying that I left.

It wasn't raining that hard now though. Which is a good thing because I reached home without struggling being soaking wet. Soon as I reached home, I locked myself up in my room and my eyes are just so bloodshot from all the crying. It just hurts so much to think that you're not seeing the person you love. That one person who sacrificed everything just for you to live. That one person you used to share your secrets with. That one person you used to share jokes and laughs with. That person who could turn your day from super bad to beyond perfect real quick. It's all gone because of me.

I am depressed. I don't know what to do without him, I am so angry at myself.

I grabbed my phone and texted his phone number. I know I'm crazy but, there is this little thread of hope that he will come back. It's crazy enough to think about it but, what if?

10:32 a.m.

"Louis."

No reply.

"Louis, baby, maybe it's time to reply?"

"Louis, honey, you have to come back."

"Baby, it's so hard not receiving any messages from you."

"I know you're there. Why aren't you still replying?"

12:27 p.m.

"Good afternoon, Louis. Haven't eaten anything yet."

"Babe, I love you."

3:45 p.m.

"Louis, you have to reply so I'll know."

"Honey, please don't do this to me. Please."

"LOUIS YOU HAVE TO FUCKING REPLY."

"BABE PLEASE!!!"

"Okay, okay, I know. I understand now. I love you. Thank you for everything. You'll always remain in my heart forever. I love you."

That was it.

A couple of minutes passed, laying in my bed and drowning my face into my pillow, crying. I am so lost with my thoughts, my tears seeking for help.

Beep beep.

I opened my phone and checked the message.

It's from his phone number.

"Who the fuck is this?"

What?

———

BEFORE

"Honey, cheer up. It's okay. Everything will be okay, I assure you, you will be okay." Louis told me while his hands caressing my cheeks, his eyes glowing assuring me that I will be just fine. He hugged me tight and kissed my forehead.

He's crying.

"Louis, don't cry please. It's gonna be harder for me."

"Shhh, baby. Don't mind me. You're so strong. But you need to take a rest now."

We laid down, no words were uttered which is what we exactly needed. Just feeling one's affection for each other. He hummed me a peaceful tune playing inside my ears, closing my eyes while my head rested on his chest.

"You're so beautiful." he whispered.

"I love you." I simply replied.

"I love you too."