Warm.
Soft.
Sweet.
Lips.
Kisses.
That was the first thoughts Kurt woke up with the next morning.
Love.
Sebastian.
A smile formed on his lips, as he felt his boyfriend prepping soft kisses to his neck and his hand cuddling his stomach.
As he turned around, he blinked his eyes a couple of times and was greeted with Sebastian looking at him, with a look he could only describe as devotion.
"Mmm.. I love you" Kurt whispered.
Sebastian leaned down and kissed his lips, starting slowly and savouring the taste of Kurt. He nipped at his bottom lip and let his tongue brush it over.
Kurt made a humming sound and opened his mouth a little, letting his own tongue taste Sebastian's.
The kiss remained sweet and yet passionate and Kurt wondered if he could wake up like this every day.
"I love you too" Sebastian answered and ended with a kiss on Kurt's cheek, before he laid his head down on his chest. His hand finding his boyfriends.
The stayed that way for half an hour, neither of them spoke or made a move to get up. They just enjoyed the quietness and listened to each other's breathing.
The silence was interrupted when Kurt's phone beeped with a message. Kurt was ready to just let it be, but he felt Sebastian freeze in his arms, and he wondered why?
"Shouldn't you see who it's from?" Sebastian asked.
Kurt looked down up to his boyfriend, he couldn't see Sebastian's face, because of the way they were laid. But he could hear in his voice, that something was up. Did he sound angry? Disappointed?
"I think the text can wait..' He settled for, while he tightened his hold around Sebastian and kissed the top of his head.
Sebastian didn't answer at first. And Kurt wondered if the disappointment in his voice before, was just something he imagined.
"What if it is from Tom?"
Now it was Kurt who stiffened, at Sebastian's question. Why did he ask about that? How did he knew that he was texting Tom? He decided he could ask, they used to talk about things like this.
"Why should Tom text me?"
Sebastian fell quiet again, before he sat up a little, laying his body on top of Kurt's, then he took both his hands in his and laid them under his chin right above Kurt's heart and laid his head on them, looking up at Kurt.
His green eyes were big, yes trustworthy, but now Kurt could see, that it had definitely been disappointment he had spotted earlier.
"Why don't you tell me?" Sebastian then asked and blinked up at him.
Kurt swallowed. He knew that Sebastian must have sensed something.
Had he been going through his phone?
When Kurt didn't answered him, but just looked at him, with more and more insecurities showing, Sebastian decided to just tell him.
"Last night, Tom texted you. And to be honest i didn't wanted to snoop.. But you just seemed distracted someway this week and ... " He looked down, not knowing his to explain further.
Kurt scrunched his nose a little. Sebastian had definitely caught up on something. It didn't seem that he knew what but as they lay like this, Kurt couldn't come up with a reason not to tell him the whole thing.
So he squeezed Sebastian hands, to make him look at him again.
And when Sebastian did, Kurt couldn't hold it back anymore and blurted the whole thing out.
He told him all about the night he had gone out and picked Tom up.
He told him about what had happened when James had come home that night.
He told him about his brother's addiction and that he had began again.
He told him about how much he had wanted Tom to share this with Sebastian, but how Tom had told him that he wanted to spare Sebastian.
He told him about how James had pressured Tom to stay in Paris.
He told him about all the texts he and Tom had been sharing since they had gotten back to NY.
He told him about the latest phone call last night.
"... So that's why i have been that way. And i'm really sorry that you have to find it this way, but I promised Tom". Kurt ended. His eyes never leaving Sebastian's.
While Kurt was speaking, all Sebastian could do was lay still, patiently listening to all he had to say. A rush of emotion ripped through him as he kept listening.
Anger towards Tom for calling Kurt for help and make him go to a place he didn't know, meaning that he had been in danger.
Disgust for James with the way he had treated Kurt that evening.
Sadness for his brother. But also proudness that he had shared that he had fallen again.
Admiration for Kurt, for him wanting to keep his promise to Tom.
Rage against James for setting Tom up.
Understanding for Kurt's shifting mood since they came back to NY.
But mostly his heart ached with love, because of how Kurt had shown loyalty to Tom, to one of the closest persons of Sebastian's heart. And how Kurt had tried to help him the best he could, knowing how dangerous it could have turned out.
When Kurt finished speaking, Sebastian could see a small tear rolling down his cheek. So he let go of his hands and cradled his face instead, before he searched up and claimed his lips in a hard but meaningful kiss. trying to tell Kurt how much i loved him.
A whimper escaped Kurt as Sebastian's lips touched his and his hands immediately found their way around his boyfriend. Now that he knew that Sebastian wasn't mad at him, he could feel how his whole body began to relax and his heart began to settle down again, beating in sync with Sebastian's again.
After talking things through it again, Sebastian takes it up on him, to tell Tom that he knows now.
Kurt agrees but, can't help but feel a little ashamed that he have broken his promise to Tom.
"You can stay here, while i call him. I can even set it on speaker?" Sebastian suggest, while he picks up the phone. Ready to call his brother.
"It's not that Bas... It's just.. What if he's mad at me?"
Sebastian takes his hand and leads him over to the couch, where he sits him down.
"Princess.. "
Kurt looks up at him.
"I'm sure that Tom won't be mad..."
Kurt interrupts him,before he can say anything else
"But what if he is Bas?.. What if i loses him?" Kurt asks, his voice is small and he is clutching Sebastian's hand hard.
Sebastian frowns a little.
"What do you mean?" He asks instead, not quite getting what Kurt means.
"What if... What if he feels like he can't trust me anymore? .. What if he thinks he lost me.. What if i lost him, by breaking my promise?" Kurt explains, and a little sob escapes his throat.
And Sebastian nods, because he gets it now. Kurt isn't afraid of losing Tom literally. He is afraid of losing a friend. A close friend. And yet again Sebastian can help but feel how grateful he is for Kurt, how he have opened up his heart to let Tom be apart of that.
"Princess.. You will not lose Tom" Sebastian starts, and Kurt's eyes snaps up to his.
"He care about you just as much, as you do for him" Sebastian explains.
Kurt nods his head a little and small smile starts forming on his lips.
Sebastian steals a quick kiss and then grins
"Besides, i don't think he can ever live without the possibility to have access to admiring your ass again"
A small smile escapes Kurt "I didn't think you wanted to share?"
The smile Sebastian have had on his lips, vanish quickly and his eyes becomes a little dark.
"I dont..." He says, before his mouth is on Kurt, this time the kiss is demanding, with a touch of possessiveness in it.
Sebastian let his lips go with a loud pop "You a mine remember?"
Kurt smiles under Sebastian darkness stare "Yeah. As much as you are mine" He says and then kisses him again, quickly but with equal passion as always.
They part and Sebastian removes a lock of hair from Kurt's face
"Im glad... And just so you know i'm proud of you princess, for what you've done for my brother"
"Thanks Bas.." Kurt replies, then he looks to the phone, laying on the bed beside them. He takes a quick breath, before taking it, scrolling to find Tom's name.
"Let's do this".
