Sebastian didn't know how long he had been sitting crying in the bathroom, but at one point Sam had come up and knocked on the door asking if he was okay.
He wasn't okay, but he somehow manages to unlock the door and now he was sitting with Blaine and Sam, waiting.
Waiting... He hated that word, in all its meaning.
Stupid time... Stupid idiotic waiting time.
He didn't know how many hours have went and he didn't care, he only thought of when he would hear any news about Kurt.
A doctor came up and Sebastian was shaken out of his thoughts, when the doctor started to talk.
"Hello, my name is Dr. Shepherd, I understand that you are Kurt Hummel family?"
Sam stood up "Yes, we are. How is he?"
"If you want, you can follow me back into my office and I can fill you in there." Dr. Shepherd said and gestured with his hand, to another door down the hall.
Sebastian swallowed, he could feel his stomach turning again. The doctor wanted them to follow him to a smaller place. Wasn't that normally for bad news?
"Can you just tell me, if he's alive?" Sebastian blurted out, his voice cracking in the end and he felt Blaine's hand gripping his.
The doctor turned towards Sebastian "He's alive".
Sebastian felt his legs give out under him and he was sure he probably was about to faint if Sam and Blaine hadn't been there to support him.
As they sat down in the office, Dr. Shepard, sat looking at the three young men, he understood that they must be worried. One of the men suspiciously looked a lot more troubled than the others.
"You're not Mr. Hummel's cousins are you?" He asked, looking at Sebastian.
All three men's heads went up really fast and they looked like there where on the edge to panic.
"It's okay... I really don't care. Right now all Mr. Hummel needs is someone being there for him" Dr. Shepard explained.
A sigh of relief escaped Sebastian's lips.
"We are his friends... Kurt's father, Burt, lives in Lima, Ohio and will be here the first thing in the morning". Blaine said.
"What are your names?"
This time Sam answered "My name is Sam, this is Blaine and that's Sebastian".
The doctor gave a nod, then he looked back at Sebastian.
"You're not just friend with Mr., Hummel are you?"
Sebastian shook his head "No. We're boyfriends".
The doctor smiled and went to take something from his desk, before he opened what looked like a journal of some kind.
"Mr. Hummel, have suffered severe smoke prison, inhaling a lot of carbon monoxide, which have damaged his organs. We have held him in a pressure chamber, to stabilize the damage."
The doctor explained.
"What does that mean?" Sebastian asked
"It means, that when he arrived here to the hospital, Mr. Hummel was unconscious, because he had too much carbon monoxide inside his lungs. We tried stabilize him, giving him regular oxygen at first, but his body didn't react as well as we wanted it to. So we had to take him to a chamber, where we turn up the oxygen level, which gives the organs optimal concession to heel in. So far that had been successful"
"Ohh... Is he awake?" Sebastian then asked
"He only been awake one time, for only one minute. He is resting right now and we are having him under observation, if it turns out his body needs more oxygen from the chamber again. Right now, he is laying with an oxygen mask on, but he is breathing on his own." Dr. Shepard ended.
Sebastian looked, down at his hands. He was relieved to hear that, but he really needed to see him.
"Can we go see him?"
"Patients who have suffered, from smoke poisoning, need rest. But in this case, I will make an exception and allow one of you to go in there"
All three men, looked up at the doctor. Only one would be allowed to see Kurt.
"It should be you or Blaine." Sam said and looked from Sebastian to Blaine.
Sebastian would really want to say, that he should go, but in the same time he knew that Blaine was maybe suffering from pain too, knowing that his best friend laying in there.
"It should be you, Sebastian" Blaine said
Sebastian looked up, he hadn't expected to hear that from Blaine.
"Are you sure? I mean, he is your best friend..."
Sebastian saw a small tear rolling down Blaine's cheek "I'm sure. And I know that if Kurt wake up, it is you he would be asking for... So yeah." He said, looking up at Sebastian.
"Thanks". Sebastian said.
All three hugged and then Dr. Shepherd guided Sebastian further down the hall.
Room number 25.
That was where they stopped walking, Dr. Shepherd turned towards Sebastian
"Like a said before in the office, Mr. Hummel will most surely be sleeping while you're in there, you can speak to him and hold his hand. But it's normal if he doesn't really react to you being there. But we believe that somehow the mind and body can registry another human being in the room. So just be there"
Then he opened the door.
There were beeping noises, a smell of chlorine and smoke inside the room. And there in the middle, was a bed, with a person sleeping in it.
Kurt.
Sebastian took a step closer to the bed and could now see the features of his boyfriend's face, he felt his stomach twisting again, but he pressed it down and walked further inside the room.
Until he stood right beside the bed.
There was nothing to see on Kurt's face, he looked like he was sleeping. The only thing reminding Sebastian that he wasn't just sleeping, was the oxygen mask which were covering his nose and mouth.
A quiet sob, escaped Sebastian's lips and he lowered the sidebar of the bed, before he knelt down a little, finally taking one of Kurt's hands in his.
He felt the warm from his hand in his and covered his hand with both his, before leaning down kissing the back of it.
He sat like that for several minutes, holding Kurt's hand in his and his lips connecting with his skin. He could feel tears rolling down his cheeks, but he didn't know if it was of relief or because he was sad.
The oxygen mask, was connected to a machine, which counted how well Kurt was breathing and how his pulse beat. After some minutes, Sebastian heard how the beeping had increased its intensity, he smiled into his boyfriend's skin, he knew it may have been a foolish thought, But somehow he was convinced that it meant that Kurt could feel that he was there.
He looked up, and brushed a small lock of hair away from Kurt's forehead, before he gave him a soft kiss there "I love you, princess" he whispered.
