Fragile #Wattys2015

Chapter 5

"Glad to see you're back." Cass greeted me coldly.

"Um..yeah. Sorry about that..." I looked at the ground awkwardly.

"I'll be at your house tomorrow to do some family interviews, sound good? Great. See you then." Cass strutted out of the room, her fat rolls jiggling as she walked.

Benji and I stared at each other for a moment before we began cracking up. She was such an ass, it felt good to laugh at her for a moment. After our laughter died down we kissed Evelyn goodbye and went home.

Home was the same situation as usual, our father snoring on the couch and our mother not home yet. Benji went straight to bed, so I was left alone in my room. I decided to text Carter.

Me: heyy
Carter: hey cutie (;
Me: so i think i promised you a date, any plans yet?
Carter: yeah!! how about we meet in 30 minutes?
Me: idk.. it's late
Carter: ):
Me: lol okay fine. where?
Carter: meet me at the lake
Me: k, see ya then!

Woah, a date. I got a date. Wow. Shit, I have to get ready. What do I wear? It's just at a lake, so nothing too fancy, right? I haven't had a date since Sa- wait, don't think about that. Bad memories.

Sighing, I decided to wear some boyfriend jeans, black converse, and a grey sweatshirt. Simple and cute at the same time.

I quietly left the house and drove to the lake. The anxiety was killing me! When I got there Carter was already waiting for me. He gave me a quick hug and led me to a little picnic he had set up. It was actually really cute. He had cheese, crackers, grapes, salami, and champagne laid out on a green blanket. He even had fake candles, which was kind of cheesy, but still cute.

"Aw Carter, this is so nice!"

"I'm glad you like it." He smiled, looking at the ground. Wait...is he blushing? He's totally blushing.

We sat down and began snacking and talking. We talked for hours about pretty much everything. Carter told me about his grandmother being in the hospital because of cancer, so I told him about Evelyn. After that, things got a little complicated.

"Indigo, can I ask you something kinda weird?"

"Sure.."

"Have you ever been skinny dipping?"

"No..."

"Do you want to?" He smirked.

"Um, Carter you're like a really nice guy and everything, but I'm not interested."

"Seriously? And I thought I was lame."

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me. I thought you were cool." He rolled his eyes and started packing up the picnic.

"Fuck you. I haven't exactly had good experiences with dating and I'm
not interested in sleeping with you on our first date."

"That's not my problem. Have some fun and you'll stop having dating issues."

"Are fucking serious? Is that the only reason you wanted to go on a date with me, to have sex?"

"Well..kind of."

"Oh my god, you're an idiot. I'm not interested, bye." I stormed off.

Don't get me wrong, I have no problem with people having sex on the first date. It's just not my thing. He was so rude about it, too! Like, what the hell? If he had been respectful it wouldn't have had to end like this. Ugh, I hate boys.

Still pissed, I pulled into our driveway and stomped inside. Unfortunately, I wasn't thinking straight and ran right into my mother.

"Where the fuck were you?" She demanded drunkenly.

"With a friend." I muttered and tried to push past her.

"CPS is coming tomorrow and it's your fault." She whispered menacingly. "Your fault."

"Mom, you're drunk. Just let me sleep."

She laughed and stumbled out of the way. "Goodnight, bitch. Sweet dreams."

I rolled my eyes and went into my bedroom. Fuck this, fuck her, fuck everything. I hate my life. Honestly, I still want to die. I can't deal with all this bullshit.

Crying, I climbed into bed and pulled the covers over my head. A plan began forming as I fell asleep. My last chance, my last hope. Maybe sleep can heal my wounds.