Emotional

How it all started

I was in elementary school and all the guys liked my friends because they were pretty and I was just the smart nerdy friend who got really good grades. Everyone has to have one unfortunately that was me. Whenever someone made fun of me I couldn't defend myself with words and till this day I still can't. I guess that was what started my low self-esteem not being the pretty girl all the guys liked. Then middle school started. How many bad memories I have there. 6th grade I can't remember much but what I do know is I was still friends with the pretty girls all the guys wanted and I was the nerdy friend. They where good friends but I felt left out. What broke me more was Him in 7th grade Him and some other girl. I already knew I wasn't the prettiest but then he came one of my childhood friends and called me ugly and other mean things with the other girl everyday. I would get really sad and my self-esteem got lower and lower with each day that past. They where so mean to me and to add more to the mean comments other guys where making me feel ugly and left out. All the guys wanted was to talk to my friends not me. They only talked to me so I could give them the right answers in the test. But what broke me the most was he was my friend that I knew since a child he meant a lot to me. I didn't talk to Him for that whole year because I came home one day crying and my mother went running the next day to school and told the principal about the bullying. The bullying it sorta kinda stopped well with Him but from those days one I still felt ugly and unwanted. He broke the little self-esteem I had. I thank my English teacher for showing me the most important and favorite thing I love to do, reading. Books helped me get out of this world and enter this new fabulous world I didn't like before. That's how I survived and didn't turn to a mean cold bith or one of those people without friends.
8th grade oh how much I didn't want to endup in the same high school as Him. But unfortunately I did. I had a better relationship with him that year but I still hadn't forgiven him for what he did to me and I NEVER will.