CAN YOU

THE REASON

HER POV

All the butterflies in my stomach just died in one single moment. The moment he turned away from me choosing her, his only love not letting me explain everything that happened believing in her lies. Yung sakit na naramdaman ko nung araw na sabihin mong hindi mo na ako gustong makita pa parang namatay yung pagkatao ko .

Every time I try to move on, memories are holding me back. Each and every day is an endless nightmare. I saw him holding hands with someone else like the way we used to do. Pain has just started to spread and my eyes tried to hold the tears. He smiles the sweetest but not at me and things started to lingers in the corner of my mind. It was her before and it's now still her.

The park, swing where we used to sit together is so cruel, right? It reminds me how happy we are even though pinilit lang kita sa relasyon nating iyon alam ko naming hindi talaga ako yung mahal mo pero bakit pakiramdam ko nuon ako talaga ang mahal mo. But then when that accident happened you choose her instead of me at ang malupit pa ako ang sinisi mo sa bagay na alam mong hindi ko kayang gawin , sya ang pinaniwalaan mo isang salita at iyak lang nya nawala ka na sa akin bigla, ganun mo ba talaga sya kamahal that you don't even bother to look for me to ask me what really happen, ngapala isa lang naman akong spoiled brat sa paningin mo, isa lang naman ako sa mga babaeng patay na patay sayo.

But now I'm so tired of all this things, I realize that no matter how much I want and want you all I can't have was you and hurts me why should be it's always you. Why should it hurt this much but you cannot take care of my heart, I have no regrets of what I did at least I have done everything that I can do, now I will moved on with my life this will be my last glance to them, to him and when I come back I hope all this pain will be gone..

"Manong tayo napo sa airport..."

And now here she is stronger, kahit na nakita nya si Ross kanina nakaya nyang maging malakas at napatawad na din nya ang sarili mula sa mga pagkakamaling nagawa nuon na hindi naman nya pinagsisisihan. She learned but she learned everything in a hard way marami syang naranasan na hindi nya akalaing malalagpasan nya and after that mas tumaas na ang tingin nya sa sarili nya hindi tulad nuon. She learned to be independent, na hidi lahat ng pagkakataon ay may magliligtas sayo dahil nakatira tayo sa mundo kung saan kailangan mong lumaban kung magiging mahina ka lang lalamunin ka ng buhay ng kapwa mo.

Nakahiga sya sa kanyang kama nakatitig sa kawalan ng biglang kumatok ang kuya Senon nya "Babe, are you sleeping" malambing na sabi nito

"I'm not Kuya", she answered

Pumasok ito sa kanyang kwarto ang lay beside her and hug her "I miss you little sis". Bigla na lang nag-unahan tumulo ang mga luha sa kanyang mata, maybe no matter how strong she is pagdating sa pamilya nya talagang nanghihina sya lalu pa at close silang dalawa ng kuya nya. "I am sorry because I'm not there to protect you, I am not there to comfort you at your worst, masakit sakin bilang kuya na hindi kita nasamahan habang pinagdadaanan mo ang lahat ng yun if I only knew na magiging ganoon ang resulta I could have come with you" ramdam niya ang bigat ng salitang sinabi ng kuya niya. She hug him back and say "It's alright kuya, I'm not blaming you for what happened to me there, It's all part of living may ibang mas malala pa ang nangyari kesa sa akin and hey, I survive everything Clarence he's always with me helping me to cope-up with everything, he makes me strong, he makes me forget everything that happened and I'm a better person now kuya, i may not change a lot but my way of life are now at a better track. I'm happy that on those times God really help me by sending an angel who was actually a jerk so don't blame yourself", we stayed like that for a while before our mom called for dinner.

Nasa baba na din ang mga kabigan ni kuya including Ross, Clarence was also there helping mom for the dinner.

I look at him he was the guy, who saves me from misery, the guy that never leave me I am lucky to have him in my life, I'm so lucky to meet him at the worst part of my life he is a part of who I am today, i admire him in every way kahit na nung una ang hirap-hirap para sakin na paamuin sya.. I smiled as I look at him helping my mother hindi mo akalain na ang dating Demon ay magiging isang Angel. Tila napansin nito na may nakatingin sa kanya at ng makita sya nito ay dali-dali itong nagpaalam sa kanyang ina at pumunta sa ibaba ng hagdanan para abangan ang pagbaba ko, I walk down the stairs smiling not minding all the eyes that were onto us, seeing him like this with that smirk and that shinning eyes makes my day.