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her life

**Third persons POV

She was walking in the hallway of her new school, everybody was looking at her who wouldn't she has swollen eyes, she's even crying the whole day, her hair was in a big mess like her life. Kialangan nyang iwan ang buhay nya sa Pilipinas. Many worst things happened there and the pain that she feel was unbearable, she don't care if they look at her with disgust all she care now is to cry until there were no tears to cry.

 And it's been a month but still it hurts like it was the first time, she as ok in class but during breaks naalala nya pa rin si Ross, how she devoted all her life to him and its all not worth it.

"Fuck! Can you stop crying!!! Gigil na sigaw ng isang lalaki sa akin nakakatakot ang sigaw nya nanginig ako bigla. Then I run from the hallway not even looking to that guy kase sigurado naman ako kung sino yun it was Clarence the "devil" of the school everyone was scared of him. He can ruin anyones life kung babanggain mo sya.. she run as fast as she can until he reached the mini garden at the back of the ** university.

 It was 5:25 at my clock that time many of the students already leave the school, I was busy cring when a group of boys suddenly appear in my front it was James group kilalang gang sa loob ng school isa sa mga kinakatakutan dahiol sa mga kalokohan nito.

"hellow my beautiful crying kitten" malaking ngising sabi nito agad gumapang ang takot sa buo kong katawan.

What d-do you wa-want from me! Natatakot nyang tanong ditto

"It's very simple Kitten I want your body, I heard that the girls from Phillippines are hot in bed I just wanna try yours" sabay dila pa nito sa labi

Doon sya napaatras at tumakbo bigla ngunit dahil may mga kasama ito ay mapakadali syang nahuli. She was crying too much that time takot na takot sya she screamed Help but she thinks no one will come for her.

" you can scream kitten but nobody will dare to help you at this time because they are afraid of me" tila nababaliw nitong sabi

The he started kissing her, he cup her boobs and press it, maging blaser nya ay winasak nito. Para itong hayup na nagpapakasawa sa kanyang labi at ng tumigil ito ay inipon nya ang natititrang boses at sumigaw "please somebody help me!!!!!!!" duon sya sinuntok sa tyan ni James ang naiisip nya nung mga oras na yon ay katapusan na nya wala na syang magagawa, walang tutulong sa kanya, nakarinig sya ng sunod sunod na mura bago sya mawalan ng malay.

She slowly opens her eyes and saw that she was in an unfamiliar room the room was colored blue and green, she remembered what happen, and she feels her stomach is in pain, wala na syang pag-asa talaga no one will dare to help a miserable girl from that a**hol*s, eto na naman sya ngayon kailangan na naming iiyak ang lahat pakiramdam nya ng dumidumi nya, ito na ata yung karma nya sa mga ginawa nya nuon she cried and cried until bumuklas ang pinto nagsimulang manginig ang katawan nya sa takot 

"No! NO! NO! Please" pero patuloy parin syang lumapit sa akin isiniksik ko ang aking katawan sa dulo ng kama.. 

No! Nagwawalang sigaw ko ng maramdamang kong hinawakan nya ako pero nawala yung ng marinig ko ang boses nyang tila nagpapakalma sa akin.

" hushhhhh now, you're safe no one will harm you again" dahan dahan kong tinignan ang mukha ng lalaking yakap yakap ako ngayon nanlaki ang mata ko ng makitang si Clarence yung lalaking nagligtas sa akin.

 I feel safe habang yakap yakap nya ako hindi nya ako pinabayaan kahit na alam kong naiinis sya sa akin.. I cried to him the whole night parang kinukuha ko ang lahat ng lakas ko mula sa kanya.

Sa panahong akala ko mag-isa na lang ako dun sya dumating, sa panahong lumuha dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ko hindi pa rin nya ko iniwan kahit na  nung nagpapagamot ako dahil sa trauma na naranasan ko hindi nya ko pinabayaan he even called my family to explain everything.

My mother cried because of that she does not leave me there until unti-unti na kong gumaling although my tendency pa din ako na magging ganun kapag hinahawakan ng ibang tao lalu na kung lalaki. Dad wants me to go back to the Philippines but I don't want to  explained to him my reasons and since nagako si Clarence kay Dad na dadantayan ako Dad agreed ang we leave on the same roof para mapanatag sila ni mom.

Yun yung simula ng pagkakaibigan naming dalawa, I learened to be strong from him tinuruan nya ko ng ibat ibang martial arts at paggamit ng mga weapons since ang school naming ay maraming gangsters and hindi ko naman sya kasama all the time kaya ko ng ipagtanggol yung sarili ko..

Nuong una nagagalit ito sakin kase pag hindi ko kaya sumusuko na ako agad at umiiyak natatandaan kop pa ang sinabi nya sa akin nuon " don't act stupid , hindi lahat pwede mong makuha ng biglaan may pinagtyatyagaan may pinapabayaan you come here to forget the pain para maging malakas , alamin mo naman kung anong makakabuti para sayo dahil hindi naman lahat ng tyaga at sakit na naramdaman mo walang patutunguhan may mga bagay na makakasakit satin pero tuturuan tayo ng mga life lesions na d natin makakalimutan, kaya kung susuko ka rin lang mabuti pang itigil na natin to at habangbuhay ka ng magging mahina at nag-iisa".

After that I focus on everything that he was teaching on me, I focus on school and I passed with flying colors. I also learned to work when we reached the age of 18.

One day after taking our licensure exam, he askefd me if I wanted to join him in a secret agency, I was thrilled that time and hindi naman ako pinipilit nila mom and dad na umuwi agad I answered yes to him. Kung saan saan kami nakarating kung anu-anong hitsura na ang nagamit naming and it really makes my blood get excited every mission kailangan mong mag-isip kung pano lulusutan ang ga situations na kinakahara mo, nakakatakot kase once na magkamali ka madaming madadamay. I was Hospitalized many times sa tama ng baril , lason, at kung anu-ano pa same as Clarence. Hindi biro lahat ng pinag daanan naming dalawa I spend all of my 12 years with him mapa hirap at saya hindi nya ko iniwan at ganun din ako sa kanya. 

Nung isang araw lang ay kina-usap nya ako

" Liwanag ko, I have realized nung umuwi tayo dito na napapagod na ako sa ginagawa natin nakalagay sa hukay ang kalahati ng katawan natin lalo na ang sayo nalagay ka sa alanganin ng dahil sa akin kaya I think it's tha right time to stop after this mission we will leave the group and live our life and I hope na kasama pa rin kita ng mga panahong yun pero kung pipiliin mo pa rin sya. I will let you go kahit na masasaktan ako alam ko namang sa mahabang panahon iniingatan mo parin sya dyan pero umaasa ako na .. tsk ano ba naman to hindi kita pinapapili just.. Arghhhhhh!!! Forget it!!" And he walks away from me...