bruised; l.h

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A/N- okok i get that you guys want me to update, i understand that. but please don't rush me into doing so. i have school,  i have to babysit, and believe it or not, i have a social life outside of wattpad (a very awkward, small one) and im still trying to figure out the route of this book. im literally winging it lol. i have no idea where its going. if you read all of this comment the word pringles----->

Luke

Kris always had bruises on her skin. I would always notice them, but I would never ask about them. I felt as if it was a private story she would like to keep to herself...

There could be many reasons as to why she has them. Every little bruise could have it's own story. Or maybe they all came from the same thing.

She probably fell off a bike. Maybe she tripped over a cord?

Could be anything.

But the one thing I really hope it wasn't, was a person. Kris doesn't deserve shit like that, she deserves the best. I know I'm not ever going to be good enough for her. That's a fact that cannot be changed.

I want to know how and where she got all of these marks and scars. Dammit, I want to know so bad. But I know that if I ask her, I'm going to force her to tell me and that isn't okay on so many levels.

I just have to wait until she trusts me. She could trust me tomorrow, she could trust me in 3 years. I can wait for her.

And I don't want Kris to smile at other boys. I mean, of course I want her to smile, she has a wonderful smile.

Saying that sounds so fucking selfish, I'm sorry. But she's mine, no one elses. Not yet anyway.

Kris didn't end up coming over today. At the time where I needed her most, she was gone. She never even texted me asking if I was okay, even though she probably knew the answer.

I was so fucking furious but I wanted to cry so badly. I was at the grocery store and on my walk home, I saw this couple. A very broken couple.

The guy was hitting her, telling her that she's his slave. He said that if she doesn't do what he says, he will kill her. I wanted to help but I was frozen still. The girl was quivering, frightened of the man. I saw her pull out a bag of marijuana and cocaine, and she handed them over. They were whispering to each other, and I guess he said something the girl didn't like, because she slapped him and screamed "Do not  talk to me like that, Michael!" and she walked away.

I was so sad about this because i don't want that to ever happen to Kris. I wanted her to come over so I could hold her tight, and whisper good things in her ear. Telling her that she's safe with me and shit like that won't ever happen. I would promise her that she could trust me.

But that never happened because she never showed up.
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Kris
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Dear journal,

I am officially a horrible person. How could i confuse Michael for Luke?

How!?

They are two completely different people.

I'm not crazy, or insane. I'm just heartbroken okay? My mind is saying Michael but my heart is saying Luke.

Luke would always hit me though, and it would hurt so much. I'm never going to tell anyone. I love Michael, and even though he hit me, and gave me bruises, i still love him. I always forgive him.

Then there's Michael who I met a few days ago. He makes me happy. I never knew he was in my science class until the day we bumped into each other. Luke's so nice and sweet. He treats me right, he says I'm beautiful and that I should never have bad thoughts about myself too.

Moods today-
-sad because of what happened with Michael
-sad because I never went to Luke's house after
-in pain because of the scars and bruises.
Sad wins, like always.

-Kris

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A/N- keep in mind, Kris was mistaking Luke for Michael and vice-versa while writing her journal.

we're gonna have goal things again so yaa

goal for next chapter-
320 reads
20 votes
3 comments

you guys can do that. i remember the first chapter said 3 votes and 1 comment, and it had like 50-70 something maybe im not suRE BUT I WAS SO SURPRISED

by the way i am so sorry for short chapters, i honestly dont know where this book is headed and it takes a long time for me to write long chapters and i want to update asap for you guys so im writing short ones

also if you saw any spelling mistakes please comment them thanks x