It dawn about 5am and I was still outside I was thinking alot things like what's the point of living if I have nobody no more Caylinda and I got into a huge fight before all of this,I've lost my best friend Louis and I lost my boyfriend Harry,And Zayn just made me feel like a slut. I also thought why me why does this have to happen to me tomorrow is the first day at school and I don't think I will be liked well and I have to live with this awkwardness on how I am forever to live with the boys and how One Direction hates me.
Also my mother abandoned me and went to live with Caylinda and her mom and I-I- just dont know what to do know more. I heard footsteps I turned around and there were Harry's I turned back around I haven't talked to him since the break-up. "How did you find me?" I asked "when we were dating -"there was a long pause there then he took a deep breath"this used to be our special spot so I thought maybe you'd be here" he said "well if you came here to make me feel worse go ahead" I said turning back around "I wasn't gong to I was gonna sort things out with you"harry whispered "why are you whispering?" "Because Louis talked to the boys how we should never talk to you and I'm breaking the rules right now and I don't want me him to hear me" said harry taking a seat next to me "ok so first things first why are you at our special place" said harry "because I missed this time when I was with you and I had a best friend and I ignored Zayn and Louis was my best friend"I said choking up on the name Louis "ok your turn any questions" he said
"well why did you come find me and "break the rules""i whispered "because I still love you and it might not seem like it but I miss you and I was afraid you were gonna leave or hurt yourself!"he said "well I'm not doing either of those things" "Jenny can we get together"he said nervously "i would but I can't because what about Zayn he thinks we are dating and if I get back together with you Louis will say that's why I am a whore and that I am just getting back together with you because I need someone to hook-up with and-" "and that's completely true" I turn around and it's Louis the little bitch "shut up Louis" I say "you want me to shut up because you know it is truer so you don't wanna admit it i front of your next victim"he says
"Louis do you know how it feels to be betrayed by one of your best friends because if something you didn't cause-" "I wouldn't know because I would admit it-" "no Louis shut up I wasn't done your blaming me for something Zayn caused because if haven't notice I've kept a secret that you told away from all the boys when you told me and after all this fighting why don't you tell them what you did why dont you tell them what the mr.i-dont-make-mistakes tell harry what you did!!"I yelled.
I looked at Louis he was red with fury he got closer to me and grabbed my arm and squeezed it tight "don't mention it I swear if you do I will-" "you'll what"I say "what your gonna hit me because last time I checked you can't hit a girl!". Louis started breaking down to tears "I just didn't want you to tell him"said Louis "I won't" I say "but I just wanted you to know that I'm leaving I can't with this drama this to much If you think I am a whore what am I suppose to do but leave get away from all this" I say choking up on my words. At that point I can already tell all the guys are outside watching I can tell Zayn is feeling guilty and is tearing up Niall is looking down to his feet,Liam is shocked,and harry he is crying a lot. I turn to harry and cup his cheek with my hand and use my thumb to wipe away the tears "I'm sorry harry" and I walk into the house to pack.
Zayn's POV
What?!?! was she really leaving she can't leave! This all my fault I had to let my feelings out this all my fault I caused this all and now she is leaving.FUCK!!!. "Guys I'm gonna miss her"I say "shut up zayn"says harry "you caused this is all your fault she is leaving!!!" He steps towards me and grabs me by the collars of my shirt and lifts me up "watch out Malik you should know what I am capable of!" He said "she told didn't she" I say. He nods his head goes Into the house I think one direction is slowly breaking apart :'(
