My secret

The Fight

"I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE MAD AT ME FOR THIS!" I raise my voice. She looks at me her stare hard as stone. I shiver an she approaches me "Damn right I'm mad. You want on a date Spencer!" She's calm but angry. I can tell by her body language. I take a deep breath "Emily is just a friend." She looks at me up and down "A hot brunette friend. That if she wasn't straight I'd even sleep with her." I'm shocked by this statement. I didn't know she swung both ways. It didn't matter I didn't care about that I take another deep breath "Okay yes she is pretty. But she has a boyfriend. I know you don't know the teams so I can understand why her and I going to dinner then a movie can see like a date." I pull her in so she can look at my eyes "BUT it was not a date. Taking her to the Russian play games was a date. But nothing happened then and nothing will happen now." She looks up at me tears threatening to fall. I can tell she's still a little frustrated but it has nothing to do with Emily.

"What's really going on? You promised no more secrets." I say standing my ground. She sigh and sits an puts her head in her hands again looks around. She pats the seat beside her I sit. We've never fought before. "Remember how I told you my parents and son are in hiding..." I nod and look around and realize she doesn't have a picture of her parents. I quickly connect the dots "Your brother." She flinches. "He saved my parents... He was a police officer. But he didn't make it." She's crying harder. And shaking "Today marks a year." She gets frustrated gets up and hits the wall "IM JUST SICK OF SITTING AROUND!!!" "I WANT MY LIFE BACK! I WANT MY SON BACK!" She then walks for the bathroom. I run after her knowing that this can't be good. I get to the bathroom on time to see her with a bottle of pills. She's just looking at them. I take them out of her hands "You were gonna throw 2 years of sobriety away because of a the father of your child?" She doesn't look up just nods. Then she says something that make me shiver

"Sometimes I wonder if I just gave myself up. If I just let him kill me like it was supposed to me. Maybe my son would have a normal life. My parents too. My brother would be alive." I feel my heart break "But then we would have never meant. Your son wouldn't have any parents. Your brother did that to protect you, your son and parents. Be thankful." I hug and and under her breath she whispers "I was never supposed to fall in love..." I push away and look at her she looks scared.

"I never thought I would either." She shakes her head "No you don't understand! I put you in danger!!" She tried to push me away but I hold we still and I look at her in the eyes "I don't care. I love you. I will die for you. Because when you love someone that's what you do. Stop running!" I pause and catch my breath she stops struggling and whispers "I'd die for you too. And then." "Did we just have our first fight?" I ask her. She laughs "Yeah we did." I kiss her, I put all my love in the kiss. She jumps at first, she didn't expect me to kiss her. She kisses me back.

I pick her up and carry her out of the bathroom. I sit her on the bed we look at each other and smile. She kisses me gently. But I can feel the love. She lays down in her bed and I lay beside her. I pull her in. After a few minutes I notice her breath even and she falls asleep. I smile against her hair and say

"Wherever you go, I will follow, whatever happens, I will hold you. Through every tear and every smile... I will make sure I love you."