My Crazy Ex

Fight

This chapter is broken up into three separate parts due to its length. So the full title will be Fight Flight Freeze. All three will be posted over the next three days.
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RIHANNA POV
I don't know how he did it, but Chris convinced Jasmine to let Royalty stay with us for a few days. I kinda figured she would be much more open to his wants and needs with me out of the picture..

I sighed and headed down the hall to the spare bedroom that Joyce had turned into Royalty's room.

Her room was by far the prettiest room I had ever seen. The side walls were pink while the front and back ones were purple. The flooring was a nice lilac carpet to match the princess feel of the room.

Her bed was a very small pink canopy bed with a wooden white frame absolutely covered in various stuffed animals and a very large white unicorn. Obviously set up ahead of time for when she would be ready for a toddler bed. However she was still sleeping in a crib near the bed. It's style was much like the bed in the way a long pink curtain circled about two inches around the back of the crib.

One of the walls had a bookshelf shaped like a castle filled with various bedtime stories and other fairytale books. Royalty must have missed the big Frozen wave, because she was missing the Anna and Elsa aspects of her room.

Opposite her book shelve was a small pink television with two purple dragon beanbags in front of it.

I liked her room, but my mind was already thinking of ways the room in my home would compete.

"Daddy loves you so much baby girl." Chris said sitting on the bed, looking into Royalty's crib. "I'm so sorry I forgot you, I'm never going to to that again. I swear to you Royalty, that I'll never hurt you and I'll never be more than a phone call away. You are so beautiful and I'm going to make it my mission to protect you."

Royalty was dead sleep. Chris was saying all this more for him than for her to hear.

"You gotta help me though Ro. I don't know how to do this whole Daddy thing and shit.. I thought I'd have at least 10 months before I had to figure it all out before I had my first... I thought Robyn would have my first.. But I know I'm not ready to be a dad. You gotta work with me. Show me how to be the man that shapes you into a beautiful woman like your mo- fuck.." He sighed. "I mean like Robyn.. She's not your mom but dammit, I wished to God she could be. She's going to be good for the both of us.. And maybe she's not ready to have my baby anymore, but that's fine. She will be one day.. I hope."

I watched him still, not wanting to let him know I was listening to him.

"I want to give you he world Ro- you, momma and Robyn, you all deserve it. And I'm sorry sometimes I fuck up, but I'm trying. Ro I'm trying so hard to be the man I need me to be but- but dammit I don't know if I deserve all this.. There's so much I don't know and can't remember.. I don't know if I deserve my life."

"Chris?" I said stepping back out into the hallway. "There you are baby.. Come to bed."

"I will in a minute." He leaned in and kissed Royalty. "Goodnight baby girl."
He turned back to me. "Angel, I love you and I'm so sorry about all this."

"She's a blessing Chris, don't ever apologize for her." I took his hand leading him back towards his old bedroom.

"But you didn't marry this. I'm dan-"

"Chris, I married you. I married your secrets, your flaws, your mistakes, and your blessings. I married you without asking and without looking into anything because I didn't care, it didn't matter. You've got to see that. I love you and I love your daughter."