Impractical daughter

Chapter 5

When dad came to pick me up he looked disappointed again. I don't know why because I was up dressed, drinking tea and it was only 7.thats when I realised that the anger he might take out on me is because of mom.

She died and I was sort of the one that caused it. I didn't mean to be born but childbirth killed my dads love of his life.i hate thinking that because if it wasn't for me they would probably be married with an actual family instead of a broken one.

I said goodbye to joe and Betty and obviously their dogs. I loved their dogs.i love their company. I don't get that with dad. The only day he is usually free is today, Sunday.when getting into the car we didn't start straight away.

Dad just stared at me. It was after a few minuets that he started to cry. He got really emotional and hid his face. I tried my best to comfort him but all he did was apologise. " I'm sorry, I'm so sorry you deserve a family not someone whose never there and when they are their drunk."

I told him "it's okay dad, you have been through enough and your not their so I have food on my table you know that it needs to happen. I do agree though I'm limiting your alcohol." I said with a chuckle

When we got home we sat down and watched TV.i lied down hugging him because I new as soon as I let go this moment would disappear. That's what I didn't like and the fact that when he was to next go on tour I would have to stay with aunt Jenna.

I was still wearing dads tenderloins jumper and he finally noticed." Is that my sweater"he asked with a chuckle. "Yours it's been missing from your room for a year I'd hardly consider it yours" I replied cheekily.

He looked at me and smiled whispering to himself " I made that". I don't think he ment for me to hear it but it gave me reassurance. And it's moments like this in my small family that I realise it may be broken but is still good.

LILO and stitch reference :)