Change of place ; Change of me

2-A Date?

It has been two weeks since me and my parents moved to New York. We used to live in a small town before coming to New York.

To be honest I missed our old town. I missed how close everyone was with each other. I missed my old school with small classrooms and my teachers who sometimes took us out of class to have the lesson at one of our houses. I missed how relaxed we were.

And most of all I missed my besties and my boyfriend. My only ever boyfriend Karl.... out of everyone who saw me as a fat mess, he saw someone else. I am not sure why but he was willing to be my boyfriend. And as cheesy as it sounds he was the best thing that happenned to me...

He made sure to remind me how much he loved and cared about me each morning. He still does through text messages but it is not enough. I want to hug him, look in his eyes , hold his hands...and that is actually all we do. Yes we kissed a few times but he knows I don't feel comfortable about it.

He understands that I have never had a boyfriend and am really unexperienced with love stuff. I find hugging more special anyways. It makes me feel protected. It gives me the message ' I am here for you'. Which is very important to me.

To be honest I am one of those weak girls who are depressed about being lonely. I am one of those people who have to be reminded that they are loved. Karl knows that I have Social Anxiety Disorder.And I couldn't be happier that he understands this and is okay with it.

I can't be happier that I have found someone like him. Yet I can't be more depressed because I moved away from him...away from us. I ruined our perfect relationship-

My train of thoughts is interrupted by my phone ringing from beside me. My heartbeat quickens as I see the caller ID. I picked it up hurriedly and answered.
"Uhmm. Hello?." My voice came more confused and unsure than I intended it to.
"Hey Carla..." his voice is so perfect... " it has been so long , I thought you would call me or something" he laughs " but I guess I lost my importance eh? Being far away and hanging with Lily Withy takes your time I guess." He laughs again.

I clear my throat as an attempt to bring my voice back as I speak but it still comes out high pitched as a side effect of being shocked. "I see you are still stalking me on Facebook" I say laughing when I realise he knew Lily from the picture I posted on Facebook. Lily was my new friend, the first one in New York. I met her on my way to Walmart and we kind of started talking about who we were and then which school we went to, and apparently we will study in the same school this year. I was positive I haven't talked about her to Karl. So he must have stalked me on Facebook to see the pic of us together. "Some things never change I guess."

He laughs again. That is one of the things I love about Karl. He is light hearted and doesn't get serious often. "You know... I miss you. I miss having you near me, close to me... and saying that I love you while looking straight in your eyes." See? I mean who wouldn't fall for a guy like Karl?
"And then I would accidentally spit on your face while saying so" he says and starts laughing again. And I join him.

Yup he did that once. And it was HILARIOUS.

"And here I thought...you...were going to...propose or something since you went all...serious and...romantic!" I say in between my laughter and we laugh all over again.

"Damn...I miss you" I confess with all my feelings leaking to my voice.

"I miss you too" he says and I think I catch a bit of sadness in his voice but forget about it with his next words " and now I will go because I have to pee."and we laugh again.

"Can you smell that?" I ask him over the phone." Can you smell the romance in the air? Well me neither because you killed it. "

"But seriously Carla, get ready we are going on a date in like an hour. Wear something pretty even though you are beautiful in anything!"and with that being said he hangs up.