Thinking Out Loud(LONG HIATUS)

Chapter 3

Hayoung's POV

As soon as I got home, I go to the upstairs without saying anything to my mom in the kitchen.

Mom: Hayoung-ah, change your uniform and eat your lunch, here.

Hayoung: I don't feel like I want to eat right now, Mom.

I don't know. Today I really don't want to meet anyone. Sometimes, I don't get myself. The things I couldn't figure out makes me feel I just want to being alone. That's why I'm a little bit introvert rather than tell anyone why it happens.

'tok..tok' the sound of the door being knocked, I know it's my mom. "Hayoung-ah.." I walk to the door to open it. "Why,Mom?" "Hayoung-ah, tell me what's wrong?"

I enter my room, then I sit in the bed followed by mom sitting next to me. "Don't be afraid to tell anyone about your feeling.." Mom smiled to me. "Thanks Mom, I don't know what I'm feeling. It sounds weird but I hope you will understand." I forced a smile. "Gwaenchana honey.. just take a rest now." Mom said to me.

Sometimes, I realized. Eventhough I often getting mad for no reason, my family especially my mom always be there for me, take care for me, and understand me more than myself. My father works really hard for me, they provide anything I want. My father is a CEO and every year the company is getting raise the profit. I'm really thankful that I don't need to lack anything. I'm just feeling enough for their love towards me.

Mom's POV

'Just wait a little longer my daughter, then you will know everything.' I mentally said as I close Hayoung's bedroom.

Sehun's POV

After finished my exercise, I'm sitting on the floor to cool down my sweat after playing basketball with my team. Then I see the ball bounces for many times, my mind replays that accident. I know I'm such a cowards to not tell her my apologize. "Sehun.." Suho called me. My reality hits me back. "Ne, hyung.." "You may go home, the exercise has done now.." "Thankyou, hyung.." I smiled.

When I got home, I see my parents were being argued. 'Again..'

I pretend not to see anything, I go upstairs to my room and banging the door hard enough. "BANG!"

To be honest, I feel pity to my mom. She works for us, but dad doesn't has occupation. He just laying on the couch all the time with beers and all his favorite things that I don't want to know. Now I know, my cowards attitude is definitely growing up because of my family problems. I couldn't do anything. It was all happened in the past, when I was still in childhood. My father was being fired for the mistake that actually wasn't because of him. Back then, he just accepted the withdrawal, then he was jobless for many years until now. He mistreats us especially mom, who works for us.

I'm crying on the floor which I hug both of my legs. I've had enough of this. I feel like lose my hope, I can't see miracle.

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When I open my eyes, it's night already. I didn't heard their voice now, I think they already sleep. My stomach hurts, I'm hungry. I remember today I haven't ate anything. Today went so long, I sighed. I walk downstairs to search something to eat in the kitchen. I open the fridge, but there is nothing. I open the cabinet, I found a pack of ramyun left there. 'Ok, I'll just eat ramyun..'
As I finished cook the ramyun, I'm going to the table. Then, I heard some steps are walking towards me. 'Mom?' I mumbled while turning my head to the voice's direction. It is my mom.

"Sehun-ah.." "Mom.."

"Why you still here?" Mom asked. I chuckled. "Ofc I want to eat ramyun.."

Mom sees what's in the bowl, "Oh.. mianhae. Mom can't cook for you today."

"Gwaenchanayo, just sleep mom, it's already late now." I said. "Aniya, I want to sit here.." Mom said.

Then, Mom take a seat in front of me. Without saying anything, I eat my food. "Sehun-ah, I'm happy today. Because I see you in my chemistry class. Continue to doing it." Mom smiled happily. I see her face. "It's only because...." "Sshh. I don't want to hear your reason. No matter what happens, you have to attend that class. I hope you can be still prioritize your school beside your hobbies.." I clearly analyze my mom's words. I just nodded. 'It's true. I can do it, I have to remove my guilty towards my mom, because mom is the only pride of mine. From now on, I want to do better in her class..'

Yes, my mom is a chemistry teacher in my school. All this time, I'm a good enough student. But, I can't attend chemistry because my mom is the teacher. Judge me cowards or anything, but I always want to blame my dad for his bad attitude to my mom when I saw her works in class.

Hayoung's POV

When I just arrived at school, I saw some students are gathering in front of the board. Because of my curiosity, my feets walk closer to see what's there.

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My eyes went wider as I read the news.

" MASQUERADE PARTY BALL"

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Hi, readers! Thankyou to keep read my bad story :")

I knew I'm not perfect........................

I feel like I want to stop writting, because suddenly I have no self-esteem, yes it can be happen to everyone.

But once again, I just want to finishing up the story all I can with every capabilities that I have because this is the only way of me to show my huge ship between Oh Sehun and Oh Hayoung.

Idk but every night I dreamt about them, this is really weird and make me thought "How come this can be?" lol.

Thanks for your kindness ^^