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Chapter12:sucide

*HALLA*

I saw her ..... My mom smiling at me from far away ,her long black hair shining with a white long dress coming toward me

I run to her but I couldn't reach her
I shouted for her but she just smiled at me she suddenly turned around
I shouted "MOM ..... No don't turn
Wait for me .... Please mom"
But she slowly became a dot and disappeared

I sat breathing heavily ... Crying and calling out for my mom

I opened my eyes seeing the light from the ceiling people coming and going
My eyes were blurry , they were wet
That was a dream ..... Just a stupid hopeless dream

I turned my head to my right and saw Taehyung sleeping and holding my hand , I tried to let go of his hand but he woke up

"Halla you awake ?" He said with a sleepy voice , I didn't answer him and started to sit on the bed

"Hey , don't sit you have to lay down
You are not okay
You need rest " he started to hold my hand looking at me ..... A worried look

"Taehyung leave me alone "

"No .... I won't "

" TAEHYUNG am so mad , you don't want to see me when I get mad ... So fuck off and leave "

" I SAID I WONT   OKAY !
HIT ME .... SLAP ME
DO WHAT EVER YOU WANT
BUT I WONT LEAVE YOU " he shouted 
I looked at him and suddenly remembered my mom

"Taehyung ...... My mom " I couldn't continue but started crying
He came closer and held me closer to him and his finger brushing my hair
I buried my head on his chest and started crying harder trying to take out the sadness out of my heart

" it's okay .... Cry as much as you want
Am here ..... Just for you " he said with a husky voice

"She won't come back tae .... She won't
She is gone ..... For ever.  I can't see her anymore. "

" but she is in a better place now
And she is looking at you, I know it's hard but now she is feeling better " he tried to comfort me and holding my even tighter

" take me to her ....... Please Taehyung "

"But now-"

"Please tae just please
I want to visit her grave "

"ok ok calm down
Just stop crying  "

Taehyung POV

Halla was destroyed , she was hopeless
It turned me crazy I couldn't stand it
It hurts me
I wanted to shout and tell her that I love her but I was afraid of her reaction
And worse .......her  Rejection

She begged me to take her to the graveyard and I did
If that's what she wants

In graveyard

She went closer to her mom's grave
When she saw it her knees felt weak
He held my hand tightly and crying silently not believing her mothers death

I couldn't handle it anymore
Seeing her the way she suffers and am standing here unable to do anything

She sat next to the grave and began to touch the soil while tears coming down she closed her eyes and put her head on the soil
I cried with her but not letting her notice .... I wished I could be in her mothers place

"Taehyung  can you leave me alone here please" she said with a cracked voice
"But -"
"Please ...... I want to spend some time with mom " this time her voice was more serious
I couldn't say no so I just nodded and began to walk out of the graveyard and decided to wait their for her

30 minutes past but HALLA didn't showed up I was worried so I went to check on her
" Halla I think it's time to -" she wasn't there
I looked around but she was nowhere to be found
"Stupid Taehyung why do you leave her
Now find her " I told my self

An old man passed by me
"Excuse me .... Have you seen a young girl with a black long hair ?"

" I saw a girl went out from that door " he said pointing at a door
So the graveyard had two doors ONE IN front and one behind she went out from behind ..... Shit

My feeling weren't good
Maybe she is trying to do something to her self . Taehyung you better find this girl
When  I went out I saw a crowd  infront of a building people were all looking up I took a look and it was Halla on the edge of the roof
"HALLA!!!!" I shouted and run inside the building I couldn't wait for the elevator so I took the stairs in my mind I prayed she won't do anything stupid I reached the roof and opened the door

"HALLA...... Don't .... Don't do it " I managed to say while breathing heavily

"One more step and I will throw my self" she said

"Listen....I know you are hurt
But that doesn't mean you have to kill you self your mom-"

"Don't say anything about mom
She left me alone ... I hate her
I hate everyone .... There is no reason to live " and by that she went a step forward

" THERE IS A REASON " I shouted making her stop

"Huh ... Reason 
What's it " she said

"ME !" I shouted and started to cry

"HALLA ...... I love you
You can't do that to me ..... Didn't you think of me ?
I-I've lost my parents and am not ready to loose you too
Please even if you don't love me back
Am okay with it
Am not forcing you to love me
But pay me back by  only existing In my life
Knowing that you live is enough for me " I said while going toward her

She turned to me crying "but you said You don't want to see  me anymore "

"I was stupid ..... I was jealous
I didn't know what I was saying " I sat on my knees putting my head down
"I know I don't have to love anyone because i will end up either by loosing them or they leave me but sorry
Am sorry ..... Falling for you was something that I couldn't control .You made my heart beat again you brought the life back to me" I kept on crying when I felt a hand one my shoulder i looked up and saw halla
I stood up and hugged her tightly
I buried my face on her shoulder making the hug even tighter
I cried harder in her hug
"Tae don't worry
I didn't throw my self " she said while her hand was rubbing my hair

"I know you won't do  that ... I know you better than yourself
You can't do something like this " I cried still cuddling her

I let go of the hug and she dried my wet eyes
" am sorry ... But I have to dry  your tears "I said jokingly and she slightly smiled

" promise me that you won't repeat something like this "I said looking at her eyes and gelding her both hand
She just nodded and looked down

" come lets go
Our friends are waiting for us
They were very worried about you especially nino and Baram " i held her hands tight and started to walk to my dorm

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Eehhhhh that coward finally confessed

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