He's not that Possessive

Chapter 6

     I felt totally sorry about shouting at Jordan but i am just really angry at her and I dont know why. I feel fucking empty without her. I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I want to have her as the mother of my children and not anybody else. I should have let her explain before i hanged up. I now fucking regret it. I love her so much that i think that i cant live without her. I am angry at myself for ruining everything.

"son, what the hell is going on with you?" my dad asked

"as gay as it sounds but i am freaking heartbroken" i replied silently while wiping the few tears that escaped my eyes. I never cried so much in just a week. This is history!

"Is it perhaps because of Jordan?" dad asked while making himself comfortable on the couch just beside my bed.

i stayed silent for a second before replying."How can life be so miserable? I think I really should accept the fact that problems and pain are part of my story. I should fucking accept the fact that I already lost the girl I dearly love. Fucking accept the fact that I am never gonna see her and hug her and enjoy life." I was already crying hard at this time. Never in my life have i cried this hard. If I am hurt I just usually keep it to myself.

This is the firs time that I cried because of a girl. I already changed. From the guy who fucked girls and dumped them like trash after I became who am i today. I never took someone in my bed for already almost 3 months unlike before that I bring different girls in my bed every week. I only want Jordan in my bed. I'm always having a hard on whenever I think of her beside me in bed, NAKED. I'm always taking a cold shower every morning. Thinking about her being with another man fucking makes my blood boil! She is only mine ! No one else can own her but only me.

"What happened? care to explain?"

I lay down my bed before telling him what happened a while ago. Dad didn't say anything for a second but then what he said shocked me.

"You're an idiot John. Before your mom was as stubborn as a mule. She hated me at first but then learned how to love me at the end. Do you know the reason why your mom got pregnant with you at such an early age?"

I think that I already know the answer I just murmured a silent no.

"I fucking forced myself to her to the point that whenever she glances at me I can see and feel how much she hates me but then, look at us now." Dad didn't say anything after that so I assumed that he's not going to tell me the details. It's true my mom got pregnant with me at the age of 18 but still pursued her dreams after giving birth. I really love my mom but thinking of it now. I love Jordan just as how much I love my mom.

"I'm gonna give you a time to think about things. I will be right down stairs if you want to talk to someone." Dad went out shortly after.

I guess I will just hire a private investigator again to update me about the things happening around Jordan.

Long time no see everyone ! Sorry for the slow update it's just that I have no time. This was my only free time. I'll see you when i see you ahahaha !!

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