Dancing in my depression

What i said

We used to talk all of the time even when school started and when you and jade broke up we still talked and stuff.

And then all of the sudden after you and Sam and everybody else got a little closer you kind of drifted away.

And I kind of just faded into the back ground.

I'm afraid I'm losing you

I'm scared Ella.

I'm scared to lose you.

I have lost a lot of friends but your different.

Your special.

And your the one friend that I'm so scared to lose.

It just doesn't feel like it.

We don't talk that much anymore.

And it scares me

Because when I try to talk to you it just becomes small talk.

And when I say hi or we see each other in the hallway you don't smile.

Your not happy to see me anymore.

I'm afraid your gonna leave me like everyone else.

I'm afraid you've gotten tired of me.

I'm afraid.

You know my book

The one I write at lunch everyday

Do you know why I write it at lunch.

It's because I'm sitting beside you and your laughing and having fun with everyone else and I'm just there

I don't like anime that much

I don't watch your shows and In the beginning I didn't even listen to your music

So I sit at lunch with all of you and I'm just that one friend who is in the middle of a giant crowd with all of my "friends" and you. And I'm just that one person who is all alone

When she has people beside her.

I'm just that one person who ruins it all

You are my inspiration for my free verses

You are the one that I have liked since I first saw you

You are me you are the other half of me

And your disappearing right Infront of my eyes

I love you Ella

But one day you will leave just like everyone else. You will disappear just like everyone else.

But I hope I'm not to late

Because I don't want to lose you yet.

This is a text convo I had with Ella