My Life as Captain America's Brother

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Chris POV

The sun was setting down when we finally got back to the base. Upon arrival, they took Zola, who we captured on the train, and lead him in an interrogation room where Col. Phillips would interrogate him. The mood, though, was anything but festive. And how could it be anyway? We lost a soldier, a Seargant, only an idiot or an enemy would be happy right now... Everybody was grieving, the Howling Commandos more than the others and Steve and I even more. We lost our best friend, our brother... 

Bucky's death took a toll on all of us. The guys went to the stork club to honor him there, I didn't even know where Steve went. I stayed behind, I didn't really feel like going anywhere. At first I just decided to just lie down on my bed, but everytime I tried to close my eyes, the same scene popped to my head... Bucky falling. Eventually, I decided that trying to relax wouldn't do me any good so I went into a training room and take my anger out at a punching bag. I didn't really know who I was angry at, was it HYDRA for killing him, was it Steve for not trying hard enough, was it me for not trying at all? 

All this confussion made me even angrier and I started hitting the punching bag even harder, to the part where it almost fell off the hook. I took a little break and just stood infront of the punching bag, watching it go back and front from the amount of strength that I used on it. I felt like someone was behind me but I didn't turn. I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone.

"Whoever you are, I don't want to talk right now" I said to whoever was behind me. The person just walked closer to me to the point where they were standing behind me.

"What part of 'I want to be alone' don't you understand?" I turned and was once again met with a pair of blue eyes, sadness filled in them as they kept staring at my eyes. I immediatelly softened once I looked at her.

"Valheria, I-" she cut me off by wrapping her arms around my waist in a soft and comforting embrace. I just hugged her back and hid my head in her silky blonde eyes. We stayed like that for a moment, just standing there, then she pulled back and looked at me with an uneasy look on her face, like she wanted to say something but she was holding back.

"What is it?" I said 

"I might sound like a fool but how are you?" she said. I chuckled "Well, first, there's no way you would ever sound like a fool" she blushed "and second, well I'm holding up." I said. She just stared at me and said "Do you believe that?" I looked at her. She had a concerned look on her face. I tried to smile but it didn't work, so I just let out a sigh and turned to the punching bag, landing a few punches to try and take my pain away "Chris" she said, catching my attention. I didn't turn though, just stood there "It's my fault .I could have done something, I could have saved him somehow but, being a clumsy idiot, I slipped." I said and started punching the bag infront of me "It's not your fault, Chris. Don't blame yourself" she said, walking to my side "You're wrong, I should have done something, I should have at least tried." I kept punching, trying to take all my anger out 

"Chris, I-" "You just don't understand, okay?" I snapped at her, my vision getting blurry from the tears starting to fill my eyes. "I do, Chris. You're not the only one that lost someone important to them." she cried. I immediatelly regretted yelling at her and hugged her, letting her cry on my chest. I then let the tears fall, not trying to hold them in anymore. "I'm sorry for yelling at you, it was a stupid thing to do. It's just that, right now, it's really hard to control my emotions and I just don't know what to do." I said, slightly choking on my tears. She pulled her head back, not letting me go. She looked at me with bloodshot eyes "What you should do is talk to someone, get it out of your chest. It is not good for you to keep it all in, you will at some point snap, just like now, but at a greater level. Just do me and yourself a favor and talk to someone" she let me go and started to walk away.

"Wait, when will I see you again?" I asked her. She turned and we locked eyes...

"Soon"

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AN: I am so sorry for the super late update, I had major writer's block, I just hope you didn't give up on this story. I promised you I would finish this story and I AM going to finish it.

Also, I started school yesterday, yaaaay (note the sarcasm). So not ready, I'd rather be having a  MCU marathon everyday until I memorize every movie down to the second.

Anyway, yesterday was also the anniversary of 9/11 and, even though I am not from  America, I would like to pay my respects to all the victims and the men that fell trying to save as many lives as they could. Never forget...

BYEBYE

~Amy~

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING EXCEPT MY OCs. ALL RIGHTS GO TO MARVEL AND DISNEY.