daddy / lrh

7

It was only 10:30 in the morning and my day was already going horrible. I woke up late with a massive headache, it took me almost 30 minutes to find parking, I failed my history quiz, and to top it off, this class was ending in 2 minutes which means I see Chris in my next class. I leaned back in my chair and watched the clock go by. God I hate Mondays.

I couldn't get yesterday's words out of my head. She's not my type. I would never like her. I knew he said that because she was there but the way he said it, it broke me. As if there was some truth behind it. It was hurting me and no matter how hard I was trying, I just couldn't find myself to let go.

The professor finally wrapped up his lecture and I never walked out of a class so fast. I was making my way to my next class until I decided that I really didn't want to put up with him or anyone for that matter today. I turned around making my way off campus but soon bumped into someone almost making me fall back. I looked up and saw the last person I wanted to see.

"Where are you going?" Chris asked. He looked tired and worn out as if he didn't sleep all weekend.

"None of your business" I walked past him until I felt myself being turned around.

"Lexi, I'm sorry. You have to forgive me"

"I don't have to do anything." I sighed running my hand through my hair. 

"Come on Lexi, I miss you. We used to talk everyday and now you don't even answer my texts." It's true. I've only talked to him twice this past week and it feels so strange. We talked everyday for years and now it's like he's some stranger. I want to hug him so badly and tell him I miss him too but no, not this time. I have to stand my ground.

 "I don't think I can do this anymore Chris." My heart sunk as those words left my mouth but I had made my decision, I was done.

"What?" He stopped in his tracks stopping me with him. I looked up at him and could see his eyes starting to glisten.

"I'm tired of hurting myself. I won't be anybody's second choice. Not anymore. You don't love me"

"How can you say that? Of course I love you Lexi! I know things are hard at times, but trust me, I really do. Please don't do this, okay? I can't lose you. I do love you Lexi" He placed a kiss on my forehead but I pushed him away from me and walked in the direction I intended on going.

I wiped the tears that I didn't even realized had fallen off my eyes and walked off campus and into my car. I didn't feel like going home so I just drove and drove, trying to get my mind off everything. I drove for about 20 minutes until I realized I was around the corner from Luke's apartment. I was hesitant to even go up considering we were still such new friends and I didn't want to come off as weird, but he was my only friend at the moment. My sister and best friend are both in class and I don't feel like being lectured by them.

After greeting the door man and taking the elevator, I walked down the hallway to his front door and knocked hoping he wasn't still sleeping since it wasn't noon yet.

The door opened to reveal a very sleepy Luke rubbing his right eye in nothing but sweatpants. How does he look good when he wakes up but I look like the grossest thing alive.

"I don't remember ordering a hot girl this early"

"Just thought I should come and surprise you. Unless you'd prefer if I was Michael" I teased. There was something about Michael and Luke's friendship I thought was cute.

"Michael is no where near as cute as you" He laughed opening the door for me.

"Sorry if this is weird, showing up like this. I just really need somewhere to be rather than school or home and you were close by."