-Kirk's POV -
The alarm clock next to my bed showed the number 3, signifying 3am.
I was sitting up in bed, my eyes red and raw from crying and my lungs barely allowing me to breathe.
I was overwhelmed. Too much had happened that day, and it all happened far too quickly.
After 20 years of bottling up my emotions and hiding behind a false pretense that everything was fine, I gave in. I confessed to Lars and he rejected me in the worst way possible.
And I felt like the world was spinning and I had no control. Life is a roller coaster, it has its ups and its downs and sometimes it just breaks and people fall and smash their face into the concrete underneath and sometimes the damage done simply can't be fixed.
In my case, I was sure the damage could never be fixed. Things would always be awkward between Lars and I. Our friendship was ruined for good.
The more I thought about that, the dizzier I got. The world began to spin faster and faster and I could barely even think, because holy shit, my life was ruined forever.
What was the point of living anymore, if I had nothing to live for?
I stared at the empty space in front of me, as I realised that I too, was empty.
And the emptiness was consuming me.
I opened the drawer of my bedside table and pulled out my notepad and a pencil.
I began to write a letter addressed to Lani and the kids:
Well, I really don't know where to start with this. Lani, I'm sorry, I never loved you. All this tim-
"Kirk? What are doing?" Lani questioned in a rather tired voice.
"Nothing" I lied, and I quickly stuffed the notebook and the pencil back in the drawer and firced myself to lay down and shut my eyes.
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Nothing Else Matters (Klars)
FanfictionKirk and Lars have been bandmates for over 20 years. They're both married and they both have children. However, Kirk has been in love with Lars since the day they met, and he can't stand to keep it a secret any longer. What will happen when Lars fi...
