Nothing Else Matters (Klars)

Fade to Black

I drove around aimlessly until it began to get dark outside. I realised I should probably go back home soon, but that was the last thing I wanted to do. What if I don't go back? , I asked myself, what if I don't EVER go back?

Despite the reality(?) of that thought, it appealed to me.

I stared mindlessly at the grey BMW in front of me, letting my eyes unfocus.

Maybe it was dangerous not to focus 100% on the road in front of me, but I didn't care. Just like I didn't care if I got arrested for the possession of illegal substances, just like I didn't care about anything.

Because the more I thought about it, the more I realized that everything is completely pointless.
The universe, all the planets, and every form of life that exists on those planets. What is the point of it all?
Nothing.
Why was it ever created? For what purpose? Why were cells created and why did they reproduce? Why were life and death ever created?
For no reason.
There is no reason to exist.
We're all going to die anyway.

Suddenly I snapped out of my "daydream" and looked for the nearest parking lot.

I stopped there to make some important phone calls. I called Lani first.
"Hey"
- "Hey, where are you? I thought you'd be home by now! Are you alright?"

"I'm fine, I just..."

- "Just?"

"Lani, I don't think I'll be coming back home" I found myself holding back tears as I spoke, "Ever. Please say goodbye to the kids for me, and tell them that I love them and this isn't their fault"

There was an awkward silence for a couple of minutes before Lani spoke again.

-"Kirk, are you okay?"

"Yeah, fine. Goodbye" I replied as I hung up the phone.

I was crying by now.
I called Lars next.
"Hey"

- "Hi, can I help you?" His voice appeared cold and distant.

"No, I just want to say goodbye, Lars" and just like that I hung up the phone, sobbing my eyes out.

I made two more quick phone calls to James and Rob, saying goodbye to them and then hanging up.

I then stepped out of the car, waited for a bus to drive by, my heart beating at the speed of light. Then, I dived in front of it.

Everything happened in slow motion-me diving, the bus driver frantically trying to stop the bus, screaming, footsteps- and all of a sudden everything was black, and then it wasn't there anymore.