Love Actually

Confessions

Brooks's p.o.v

I walk into the dark room and close the door behind me. Locking it. This conversation is for me and Louis, i don't want to be interrupted. I wait for my eyes to adjust before continuing to find Louis. I should turn on the lights but that would be cruel. My eyes have adjusted a bit. I look around at the various shadows in the room making it harder to find Louis. I look on the bed and see a figure laid out taking up everything, hands and feet dangling off letting out various gasps of air and squeaks. He's crying.

"Lou?" I ask. He groans and scoots over a bit and patting an open area for me to sit down. I do and rub his back. Even when he is upset with me he is still super sweet.

"Don't apologize I know this was coming" he groans in between breathes. I sigh. Holding back all the tears that I want to cry for his sake. I know he screwed up by dating me while he knew I was with Harry before, but I don't think he did anything wrong. Not at all.

"I'm still going to apologize. So I'm sorry, but to tell you the truth, I don't think you did anything wrong" I say. He turns around and flips the lamp on by him. I shield my eyes from the blinding light waiting for them to adjust. I open them again to see a puffy eyed, red nosed, sniffling Louis. Wet streaks running down his cheeks. He wipes a few away and clears his throat.

"Y-you don't?" He stutters. He doesn't stutter unless he has been crying really hard. And he was. I shake my head.

"But I hurt Harry, and Eleanor the two people you care about most in the world" he sniffles. My eyes widen at him but soften.

"They aren't the two people I care about the most" I smile.

"They aren't? Then who are?" He asks. His stuttering ending along with his sniffles.

"You and Harry" I blush. His eyes widen and he looks away. He was blushing as well and I could tell, but for his sake I pretend I didn't see him blush.

"I love Eleanor and all but you and Harry have become the only people I can talk to the most no matter what" I smile. I'm making him blush more.

"I do love Eleanor too, but she isn't the most important person in the world to me either" my eye widen. We love El and all but who is important to Louis?

"Who is then?" I ask. I bet it's him mum or something.

"You" he shrugs. I feel my cheeks become hot. He smiles and chuckles. Making me blush more.

"I have a question for you" I ask. He nods slowly for me to go on. Here goes. I sigh.

"Did you mean everything you did when we were together?" I ask. His eyes widen and he tenses up. He swallows hard. Ok this is good if he didn't feel anything I'm ok with that, that way I know their nothing here.

"Do you really need to ask?" He smiles. I turn my head to the side confused. He takes a deep breathe.

"When I sang to you, I meant every word. Every action, every act, everything I did I meant it. I had always been jealous of Harry because he snagged you first. You are everything to me. I love everything about you, your laugh, your smile, your fashion sense, the way you snuggle up against anything when you are asleep. I love it all. So when we were together I thanked god that it happened. I knew it was for a short period of time so I never let you go. I was always afraid you would wake up and scream because I wasn't Harry. And I'm not." He confesses. I feel tears roll down my cheeks. I never knew he felt like that. My hand grabs his and I pull him in to hug him. I cry onto his shoulder and he cries into my neck. I inhale his scent.

"Did you feel anything?" He asks abruptly. I pull away and rub my arm. Well here goes nothing.

"Yes I did, I loved being with you, you were so sweet so caring so charming. I felt something their, I felt the love I feel for Harry towards you, and I loved every minute of it, yet it still felt odd." I confess as well, tears still running down my cheeks. He looks at me shocked.

"But we can't be together though" Louis shrugs. I nod.

"I know" I sigh.

"But at least we know right?" He smiles. I smile back and nod.

"Can we just have one more kiss, like a goodbye? Friends getting back as friends?" He asks. I hesitate but nod. I hope I don't regret this.

He cups my face softly and brushes my hair to the side. He comes close to my face, close enough that we share each others breathing. He smiles before softly bringing his lips to mine. We kiss for about 30 seconds or so moving our lips in harmony. We pull away and smile at each other.

"Ok, friends?" Louis asks. I nod I'm agreement. I get up later on and walk out of the room waving a 'goodnight' to Louis before going to Harry's room. I find him wrapped in the blankets and leaving a spot for me. I snuggle In next to him, letting the warmth cover me. Harry groans and flips over, he feels the covers for my hand and I grant him it. He hugs my hand and my waist. I think he is afraid ill disappear or run. I cuddle up next to him and think about my kiss and talk with Louis. I couldn't give In to him but, I felt a spark. Just a small spark.