patient 69 (A ChrisBrown FF) #wattys2017

that night

Chris

I ran back to the room and sat on my bed resting my head in my hands. I bet keziah probably thinking im such a weirdo for running off everytime she tried to talk to me.

But i can't help it that everytime i see her my heart beat increases my hands start to sweat and my knees and feet feel like jello I overall just freak out. And I bearly know the girl if she makes me feel like that now I can only imagine how I'm gonna feel once I actually get to know her.

Shes just so beautiful her skin is this smooth milk chocolate color her hair is super curly but thick if that make since. Then her body is every man dream she her boobs are just the right size not to much and not to little. Her hips are wide and thighs are thick.

I normally dont talk about females like this but keziah just seems different then the others and I like that she has this innocence about her that draws me in.

Now dont get me wrong I mean theres some cute nurses and patients here but they only good for a quick nut nothing more nothing less and I keep it that way for a reason these girls get attached easily specially the patients .

keziah she seems different i just can't spit my game at her and exspect her panties to drop. Something tells me shes gonna make me work for the kitty and im honestly fine with tht. thatt after the stunts i pulled today she probably dont want nothing to do with me.

Keziah

I walked back to the room after talking to the guys that where talking to my roomate which by the way his name is chris. They told me alittle about him and why hes in here. I know they maybe wrong to say but I'm actually glad me and him having something in common.

His friends august and tyga told me since I stayed behind about how Chris was talking about me and how he normally dont act like that around females. I thought it was cute to hear that I made him shy when he has no reason to be. I personally think I'm not all that to be honest. I decided to give Chris some time alone so i didn't mind chilling with Aug and ty after chris ran out.

When i got to the room i saw the door was closed I cracked the door open alittle and peaked my head in and i saw Chris sitting on his bed reading what looked like a notebook it sounded like he was singing.

He had his eyes closed so he didn't see me come in. I stood as He finished the last the song his voice was amazing he's a really good singer.  I started clapping which caught him off guard he looked embarrassed but he shouldnt have. He had a amazing voice on him.

i apologized and he just nodded his head looking down at his feet like a little child would when they did something wrong and didn't want to make eye contact with me.

He looked all shy I thought I sat on my bed across from him smiling hoping that he would loosen up. I watched him put his book into the night stand and sit back down still not making eye contact.

I decided to finish unpacking since it was a awkward silence in the room and i hate awkward silences. I've had enough of them when I was alone so I actually want some interaction .

I started humming this song that I herd from the TV on the TV room. It's  been in my head all day and folding the little bit of clothes i had and putting them in the empty drawers. I dont even know why I have them since they gave me these different kind scrubes to wear.

I was about to come upon this part of the song that had a high note when chris jumped in and started singing the words and helping me fold my clothes

i paused and just watched him smiling. You could tell he was so into the song cause he started doing little dances while he was putting up the clothes.

Me: you have a amazing voice chris. I told him continuing to fold.

chris: how u know my name? He asked while putting the last folded shirt in the drawer.

Me: august and tyga told me since u ran off before i could ask u. I responded

Chris: oh sorry about that and thanks I like your name too. He responded with a smile

Me: ur welcome and thanks for helping me unpack i really appreciate it. I said giving him a smile back

Chris: ur welcome i hope i didnt freak u out earlier i really didnt mean to its just well...

He had this face expression tht basically told me he didn't want to explain any futher which was fine because i already knew what he was gonna say and i didnt want want him to run out again.

Me: chris u don't have to explain urself to me if u dont won't to i understand. I assured him as i grabbed my pj's and shower supplies so i can take my shower again which Is normal for me.

He nodded his head in response he went inro the nightstand and grabbed his notebook. I closed the bathroom door and proceeded with my shower.

Chris

I started to write in my journal about how my day went and my feelings which my therapist told me I should start doing.

I actually didnt write all about my day i mostly wrote about keziah and how the way she smiled at me had my stomch turning nots.

And i havent felt like that since marissa she was and aways will be my first love and i can never forget her.

But shes gone and never coming back and its all my fault if i didnt listen to the voices i wouldnt have looked through her phone and found the messages between her and my brother and she would still be here in my arms instead of 6feet under.

I wish i could take everything back but i cant i didnt realize i was crying until i looked at my notebook with tear drops running down the page. I saw the bathroom door open and i quickly tried to wipe my eyes before keziah saw me but i was too late.

Keziah: omg chris whats wrong? She asked sitting next to me on the bed

Me: nun im fine its just my allergies. I said hoping she would take my excuse.
But that didnt work cause she came over and took my notebook from over my shoulder.

I sat there waiting to see what her respond was gonna be when the voices popped up in my head.

Voices: shes gonna find out about us and how crazy u are kill her now! They screamed in my head i ignored them not wanting to scare keziah again with one of my outbusrt.

She closed the book and just looked at me then just when i least expected it she hugged me and i instantly grew weak. Her hug was soft and loving i just didn't want it to end.

If only she knew that the longer she stays the longer the voices will talk to the point were they gain all control.