We got home and I helped Annabelle with her work. She finally got in bed and I waited till I knew she was asleep to go take a shower. I was in the shower for a good hour just crying. Dad lost his license so im gonna have to drive them around. I have to pick up dad from the hospital tomorrow. I'm not sure if he's gonna be able to keep his job now. But ill get up two hours earlier and not let him buy anything just os we can keep this house and keep Annabelle in school. I don't care about if I finish school I could just do it over the internet or something. I just want to make sure Annabelle gets a good education. I got out of the shower and put on my pajamas and went downstairs. I sat on the couch and stared at the wall thinking about how everything has changed. Thinking about my mom mostly and if dad was gonna start drinking again. I ended up falling asleep on the couch. I woke up the next morning and I was nauseous. I didn't eat but I stopped at McDonalds and got Annabelle her breakfast. I dropped her off at school and went and got dad. I brought him back home and he had a bunch of medicines he needs to start taking. I had to go pick up my work and tell my teacher what's going on so I put dad in his room and I told him he had to stay in bed till I got back. I got in my car and went to the school. I got all my stuff and headed back home. They gave e a week off school. I got home and dad was asleep so I started doing my work and realized I needed to go get Annabelle. I went ahead and got her then we came home and hung out.
~next day~
Mom's funeral is tomorrow so I have to take Annabelle to get a dress for the funeral. I decided to just let her take the day off school. We were at a dress store getting a dress and I told her to try it on. She stopped and turned around and said "Why did she have to leave us? Why do we have to wear black? Can't we wear something pretty like white since mommy's an angel?" Hearing her ask that just broke a little piece of my heart off. I had to turn my head for a second to try not to cry in front of her. "You can get a white dress if you want since mommy is an angel. She ran off to pick out a dress and I just sat there watching her. How about this one?" She ran in to try it on and I just waited for her. She came out and she looked so beautiful. We got the dress and went home. I was helping her put the dress away and I didn't see dad anywhere so I went to check on him. He wasn't in his room but the bathroom door was half open. Dad? I said knocking on the door. No response so I opened the door and there he was sitting on the floor with three bottles of alcohol and 7 pill bottles on the ground. He was pale and cold. DAD!!!!!? PLEASE WAKEUP!!! I just sat there screaming and crying. NOOOOOO YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME!!!! NO PLEASE! I just sat there rocking back and forth holding my knees. I heard annabelles faint voice behind me. No ANNABELLE GO CALL THE POLICE NOW! She ran downstairs and got the phone while I read the note I found in his hand.
"Dear Grace,
Please don't be mad. I know I'm leaving you all on your own to take care of annabelle and im sorry. But I miss your mom so much and the alcohol isnt making it better. The doctor found cancer in my lungs and said I didn't have much longer anyways. I hope you understand. Ive set it up where you get everything left in my savings and all of my bank accounts to take care of you and annabelle until youre able to get a job or something. Please forgive me. I left a locket of me and your mom on the table downstairs. Keep it so you have something left of us. Love Dad."
The locket is all I have left. How could this happen. This is my fault!!!! I screamed. A few moments later I felt a hand on my shoulder and people trying to get me to get up. I felt numb. No tars were coming out it was just pain inside my chest and I went outside and annabelle was sitting there with a cop. The cop was talking to her and trying to distract her. I came outside and just collapsed on the ground screaming and crying. Then a few minuets later here they came out with dad ad drove away. . What more could I take? It's just the downfall of life.
