Hola meh fellow earthlings I'm back with another chapter that might bore you to death. So anywho I have good news and some bad news. The good news is Monday is labor day so we don't have school on Monday. Yay 😊. Bad news is Issa' s grandpa died 😢. You are probably wondering who is Issa, well that is someone also known as twaimz. Yes, that llama loving dude that makes amazing songs. If you don't like him then something must be wrong with you. Jking, but if you don't tell me why in pm or in the comments.
So as i was saying his grandpa died 😢 his name was Issa to. Yesterday he posted a video about this and it made me cry. He didn't really know him well and it makes me think about some of the people in my family that died. I didn't really know them well or not at all. My grandpa died and I want even born yet. My G.G died and I don't really have any memories of her. Then my pet died last year during summer. People think i didn't care about them because I didn't cry about them, but i did just not in front of them. I cried about half of my summer over them or because people hate me. I cried in my room in the middle of the night when everyone was sleeping.
I tried to stop most of the time, but it usually didn't work. Some nights i stayed up until I cried myself to sleep. ( thinking of the song some nights while writing that ). I thought why are you crying if you didn't really know them or i thought it was all my fault. I blame one of there deaths on me, it is my fault and don't say it isn't because you don't know what happened and I'm not telling anyone. It hurts to much to think about without starting to cry. People tell you to be happy or it's ok when your crying, but twaimz said its ok to be sad. If you want to cry your eyes out then cry your flipping eyes out. They don't know how you feel because it's your feelings.
Don't you ever feel like people don't understand you? That's exactly how I feel everyday. School is either an escape from all that or just a reminder. Wattpad helps me, makes me forget about most of my troubles. My friends sort of do that, lately they ignore me lie to me and make fun of me. They say I'm just playing or i didn't mean it, but deep down inside i know that mean everything they have said. I've been cursed at, teased, called names, and other stuff. So i just read, listen to music, read wattpad, and sing. Sometimes I wish I could go to a different dimension, but everything's meant to happen for a reason. This is Awesome Turtle signing off for now. Bye meh earthlings.
