I wanted to be mad at him for just "popping" up but the truth was I was relieved he was there. I was relieved that he hadn't left me forever without an explanation. Or that the secret he was keeping from me was terrible enough for him to run away.
"You came back?" I asked with my typical raspy morning voice.
He laid beside me on his stomach right by his side. Typically the place I felt he belonged.
"I'm really sorry for leaving but I can't risk losing you." He spoke genuinely.
Part of me wanted to be happy he didn't want to lose me but the bigger part of me was afraid what secret was big enough to make me leave.
"I thought we were closer than this you know?" I sighed sitting up Cameron following. " I thought we promised to always tell each other everything."
Cameron intertwined his cold hand with mine and looked me in the eyes.
"Its true Y/N its just..." He shook his head.
"Just what cam" I politely asked trying not to pressure him.
"You don't know how much I love you and how hurt I would be if you left"."
I pulled him closer to me his head now resting in my lap. I slowly ran my fingers through his soft dark brown hair. Before Cameron I had never experienced true love and the one time I had it turns out I was the only one who felt that way. Cameron had been the one to keep me alive for the last 3 years and I knew without him I would fall apart. So yes I understood how hurt he would be if I left.
"Your my everything." I chuckled. "Of course I understand."
For a few minutes we sat in silence listening to the breath of each other. But he finally spoke. He finally spoke the truth.
"The only reason I started talking to you was because Jack Gilinksky asked me to be his wingman."
