RAFAEL NGUBANE

29. DO BETTER

30 MINUTES LATER

SEGO

WE ARRIVE AT SOME PENTHOUSE AND HE PARKS INSIDE. HE PLACES HIS HEAD ON THE WHEEL AND STARTS CRYING.

RAF: I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW ANYMORE

I JUST LOOK AT HIM BECAUSE HE REALLY CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD. HE LOOKS AT ME, TEARY EYED WITH HIS FACE TURNING PINK

RAF: WHY DOES IT HURT SO MUCH

ME: WHAT HURTS?

RAF: EVERYTHING

ME: OH, ME LIVING MY LIFE?

RAF: YOU'RE DOING ALL THESE THINGS TO GET BACK AT ME

ME: THIS IS NO GET-BACK, IM SHOWING YOU THAT WHAT A MAN CAN DO, A FEMALE CAN DO IT BETTER BUT THE TWIST HERE IS THAT, I AM LIVING MY LIFE AND LETTING YOU DO YOUR THING

RAF: IM SORRY FOR KICKING YOU OUT (SIGHS) (WIPES TEARS)

ME: (SIDE EYE)

THERE IS SILENCE

RAF: (LOW TONE) SEGO

ME: (LOOKS AWAY)

RAF: I GOT RID OF HER

ME: EXCUSE ME ?

HE LOOKS AT ME

RAF: THEY KILLED HER

I STARE AT HIM

ME: WHO ?

RAF: (SIGHS) OR..

ME: NO

RAF: (SIGHS)

ME: KILLING THE BITCH YOU CHEATED WITH DOES NOT MAKE IT EASIER FOR YOU TO LURE YOURSELF BACK INTO MY LIFE

RAF: SHE WAS FOUND DEAD MASEGO. I THINK SHE OVERDOSED

ME: MXM

RAF: I WAS HOME THE WHOLE TIME. I JUST FOUND OUT

ME: (SHAKES HEAD).

RAF: MY MOM JUST TOLD ME.

ME: SO WHAT MUST I DO WITH THAT INFORMATION? REJOICE ?

RAF: I FUCKED UP BABY. I REGRET IT TILL TODAY

ME: WOW

RAF: I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. I FORGOT ABOUT THE PLANS WE HAD MADE TOGETHER. THE LIFE WE WANTED FOR EACH OTHER. (SIGHS). I MADE YOU GO TO THERAPY AND STILL (CRIES). IM A SHITTY ASS MAN YOU KNOW

I LOOK AT HIM

RAF: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I CANT IMAGINE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU, I NEED YOU.

HE HOLDS MY HAND AND STARTS KISSING IT.

RAF: I PROMISE ILL DO RIGHT BY YOU. WE HAVE A LOT OF COMMUNICATION WE NEED TO LEARN TO UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER, BUT IM 100% WILLING TO MAKE THIS WORK. I MEAN IT. GIVE ME THIS CHANCE. WE'LL DO EVERYTHING AT YOUR PACE, NO RUSH.

I JUST LOOK AT HIM. HE WAS ACTUALLY CRAZY GUYS, I WANTED TO LEAVE BECAUSE I WAS SO TIRED BUT A MAN LIKE HIM WILL ALWAYS FIND ME. KNOWING HOW THIS THING WORKS, MEN LIKE RAFAEL ARE HARD TO RUN AWAY FROM BECAUSE HE WILL FIND YOU OR POSSIBLY RUIN MY LIFE IF I CHOOSE TO MOVE ON. WHICH WAS UNFAIR

ME: (SIGHS)

I LOOK AT THE WINDSHIELD

ME: FINE

RAF: (NODS) THANK YOU. I MEAN IT

HE GETS OUT OF THE CAR AND OPENS THE DOOR FOR ME.

RAF: (CLOSES DOOR) THIS IS OUR HOME

I LOOK AT HIM

ME: WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS OURS

RAF: I WAS SETTLING PAYMENTS, ITS OURS. IN OUR NAMES

ME: (LOOKS AT IT) WOW, ITS NICE

THE INITIAL PLAN (BEFORE HE CHEATED) WAS TO LIVE IN A PENTHOUSE, LIVE A PRIVATE DREAM LIFE AWAY FROM OUT FAMILY. EXPLORE EACH OTHERS KINKS, GET MARRIED AND HAVE A LOT OF KIDS. TRAVEL AND DISAPPEAR OFF THE RADAR

RAF: (LETS HIS HAND OUT) LETS GO

I STARE AT HIM AND PLACE MY HAND ON HIS. HE LEADS THE WAY.

RAF: I TOOK NOTE OF EVERYTHING YOU SAID YOU LIKE, YOUR FAVOURITE COLOUR IN CERTAIN AREAS. THE WHITE COUCH

AT THIS POINT I WAS FREAKED OUT, BECAUSE HE FURNISHED THIS PLACE EXACTLY HOW I WANTED IT TO BE. HE GOT IT ALL RIGHT. EVEN PLACEMENTS. OH MY GOD. I LOOK AT HIM

ME; HUH.. ITS PERFECT

RAF: I GOT IT RIGHT ?

ME: (NODS) ITS AMAZING

RAF: LETS GO UPSTAIRS

WE GET INSIDE AN ELEVATOR AND I NOTICE HE HAD MY PICTURES ON THE WALLS. ALL THE SELFIES I SENT TO HIM, FRAMED AND PUT ON A WALL.

ME: (CLEARS THROAT)

WE REACH THE BEDROOM AND..

ME: RAF

HE LOOKS AT ME

RAF: MHH?

ME: YOU'RE FREAKING ME OUT SO BAD

RAF: (SMIRKS) HOW MUCH ?

ME: SO BAD. ARE YOU SURE YOU ARE NOT.. CRAZY

RAF: I AM.

WE STARE AT EACH OTHER FOR 5 SECONDS AND HE LOOKS AWAY.

RAF: THIS IS OUR BED. NOBODY CAN ENTER HERE. THIS IS A PRIVATE SPACE

ME: OH

HE OPENS THE DOOR

RAF: YOUR WALK IN CLOSET.

HE OPENS ANOTHER DOOR

RAF: MINE

(OPENS DOOR)

RAF: BATHROOM CONSISTS OF A BIG TUB, SHOWER, BASIN AND A TOILET. ALSO THE MIRROR YOU SAID YOU LIKE

HE WALKS AWAY

ME: WHATS IN THAT ROOM ?

HE PAUSES

RAF: YOU

HE TURNS AROUND AND GOES TO THE DOOR.

RAF: PROMISE ME YOU WONT FREAK OUT

ME: I PROMISE