The One That I Need

Chapter 3 : OUTER SPACE

GD's POV~

*Inside his room , laying on the bed*

I can still remember kung pano nga ba nahantong sa hiwalayan yung space sana na hinihingi nya. Kung pano bumalatay ang sakit sa mukha nya nang binitawan ko yung mga salitang di ko akalain na kaya kong sabihin sa kanya.....

*Day ng pag-uusap ni Kiko at GD*

"Hey hon. I miss you." Bati ko sa kanya pagkatapos ko syang halikan sa pisngi.

Tinignan nya lang ako. As if she doesn't hear my greeting to her. Aaaah. Malamang nagtatampo to. Matagal na kasi nung huli kaming nagkita ee. Medyo busy na kase, our group just had a "comeback" and it usually take my time para lang masiguro na okay ang lahat.

" Honey.. Kiko.. I know na nagtatampo ka. Sorry. Alam mo naman di ba- "

" Na ano? That you're busy from all the works and shit that you're doing? Na kahit simpleng tawag o text man lang hindi mo magawa? Haaah! Tell me GD , I'M A STILL IMPORTANT TO YOU?! Kasi hindi ko na maramdaman ee.." Putol nya sa sasabihin ko.

" Of course you're important to me. SOOO MUCH. Don't ever doubt that. Sorry kung yun yung napaparamdam ko sayo lately. Wala akong pwedeng i-excuse dahil alam kong may mali din naman ako. I'm sorry honey okay? I'll make it up to you. Promise when our tour have it's break, I'll spend my time with you.. PROMiSE.. " Mejo nagpapacute ko nang sabi sa kanya. Galit na kasi ee. Hehe, onting pa-cute lang matutunaw din galit nyan.

Pero mali pala ang akala ko. Dahil hindi sya nadala sa pagpapa-cute ko. Instead, the room filled with silence that almost make me lose my mind. Hindi ko alam kung anong iniisip nya.

Until finally..

She speak..

" ...it's just that.. I can't take this anymore. You being busy with all the things you need to do.. I'm tired of waiting for you. Waiting for your call. Tired with all this shit that's going on." I look at her. And the bitterness is visible in her eyes..

"Imagine? Girlfriend mo ko pero parang kailangan ko pang mag-paschedule para lang makausap kita? We need space. I do need it now GD."

I sigh deeply..

And..

" Alright.. I'll give it to you if that's what you want." I said it sa tonong parang casual lang. Kahit na nasaktan ako. Kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na totoo din nman yung sinabi nya. Actually ngayon siningit ko lang talaga tong pagkikita namin sa schedule ko. Kahit na medyo pagod pa ko dahil kakagaling ko lang sa isang music show to showcase our new song. Kasi sabi nya importante daw yung pag-uusapan namin.

She look at me with blank expression.

" Yan lang ang masasabi mo? Huh GD? After all the things that I've gone through because of you , you'll just say na it's okay with you?? Na para bang wala kang pakialam saken? Sa relasyon naten? " Pasigaw na nyang sabi sakin.

" Then, ano gusto mong sabihin ko? Gusto mo na magmakaawa ako sayo na huwag mong gawin yung desisyon mo?" I know that I'm getting piss .. At di ko na nga napigilan ang bibig ko..

"Tapos sinusumbat mo sa'kin lahat ng ginawa at tiniis mo para SAKIN?
Kiko, let me ask you a question, para saken mo ba talaga ginawa yon o para sa sarili mo? Di ba ikaw naman ang pinaka-nakinabang sa relasyon nating to. You gained the popularity and the connection that you need in the modelling industry because of me.. " I said it without thinking the consequences it may take sa relationship namin.

*Slap*

" Really GD, really.. Ganyan pala ang tingin mo saken huh? " Bakas ang lungkot at galit sa mukha nya nang sinabi nya yon.

" I... I'm sorry Kiko.. I didn't mean to say that words to you. Pagod lang ako. Sorry.. "
Ni hindi ko na ininda yung sakit ng pagsampal nya sa kin. Natauhan ako. The pain that I can see in her eyes is enough to make me want to kill myself in that instance.

" No GD , you meant it all. And maybe you're right. I'm that kind of person... Haaaah.. Siguro nga mas okay na din talagang tapusin na natin to. Nagkakasakitan lang tayo. Let's just
end all of this. And this time, I promise
you, I wont bother you anymore. "
I saw the tears that keep falling on her cheeks before she hurriedly walk away out of the room.. And out of my life..

I tried to stand and run to her para pigilan sya..

Pero di ko nagawa..

All I can do is stare at her back and watch her walk away..

Naduwag ako..

I can't follow her and stare at her eyes knowing that I'm the one who caused that so much pain to her..

And that day..

Our relationship ends..

AND I'M HERE..

LAYING ON MY BED..

I CAN'T FEEL ANYTHING..

IT'S LIKE.. I'M FLOATING IN THE OUTER SPACE..

NUMB..

AND JUST THINKING ABOUT HER..

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