Hope

chapter 6

I awoke to the sound of my phone going off. I got a notification from Twitter. Cameron had just tweeted a picture from his photo shoot. ( picture above). As soon as I saw the Angels face I couldn't help but smile. Seeing him made my day better, my battle easier, my life worth living. If only I had the chance to tell him I love him and how he gave me hope when I had none. That seeing him smiling made my battle easier. But he'd never see me. I'd lost count how many times I tried. Sleepless nights where I'd think of cute ways of meeting him. Why did I do it to myself? I knew I had no chance to meet him, let alone have him fall for me. But I still had the tiny bit of hope. That maybe, just maybe I was different. I was lucky.
I saved the photo and made it my background. I smiled once again at his beautiful face, taking in every little detail so when I fell asleep I'd be able to imagine his face crystal clear.
I logged back into twitter and sent him another Dm, telling myself he'd read it this time.

" Your probably Sick of me and I'm sorry for bothering you.
But your amazing, you really are. what you do for us is really sweet and means the world to us. Thank you! don't forget to smile today. Sometimes it's easy to forget but you just gotta keep it on. Like your crown. Hope you had an amazing day,you deserve it. I love you sunshine "

I sighed as I knew he wouldn't see it, just like all the others. I left my phone beside my laptop, slowly walking to the kitchen to make myself a sandwich.
"Maybe food will keep my mind off him" I kept repeating in my head.
"Maybe this time".