the faults in one month ; a.i.

prologue ; my dearest lily and my dearest mae

My dearest Lily and my dearest Mae,

I am writing this letter to you both, hoping that you are both still okay. Happy and healthy, maybe?

I know, I know, you're wondering how this letter is possible. Well, since, I'm dead. I wrote this the day before I died. Past tense, tomorrow I know I will die. And, you will be witness to the tears and screams of your mother.

You know? I love you three girls with all my heart. The world could never take away how much I love you all. The day your mother gave birth to you two was the best day of my life. I never knew I could feel that happy and elated on a single day, but I did. And, it was because of you two. Not only one, but two bundles of joy that never fought as babies. Of course, when you were older you did, quite a lot actually. But, I still love you both and I know you love each other, as well.

Mae,

I know we weren't as close as Lily and I, seeing as you never really liked the dirt and mud, and risks. You were always connected at the hip with your mother. Do one thing for me, yeah? Make sure your mother is okay. Take care of her for me. Don't let her get too sad. Let her know that I love her so much, as well as you, Mae.

Lily,

My dear, we were always so close. You loved going to work with me, playing sports with me, watching the big games. You were a tomboy, my tomboy. You were my little joy. Mae always took more after your mother, but you, you took after me. I don't want you to lose any of that when I'm gone. Watch the games for me, play sports for me, take care of Mae and your mother. You have always been the strong one, okay? I love you so so much, Lily. Never give up hope.
As a wise man once said; if you're going through hell, keep going.

Girls,

I love you, both. With all my heart. Please don't throw away my love. And, never forget me, and that I am always with you. Taking you through life, especially you Lily. I knew Mae never had problems, simply not caring what others thought, and keeping her head held high. And outgoing little joy, she was. But, Lily, you are so so shy, and you let words get to you so fast. I'll be right there, and don't you let the world bring you down. And, never forget? Mae will always be there. You're each other's best friends, and Mae will always help you get through anything. Thick and thin.

I love you with all my heart,
Your father,
Jensen Berri

P.S.
Life is the most beautiful lie there is, but death?
Death is the truth. The truth that tears you apart and leaves you empty,
void.