Shawns pov
"Shawn please" I heard Kaitlyn say right before I slammed the door. I was so mad. Then right as I started to walk away I heard something. Kaitlyn bawling and screaming. I knew I hurt her. I just brushed it off and kept walking to my truck. I cranked up and spun my tires in the gravel if her driveway and sped off. Why doesn't she trust me. I mean yeah I miss Camila but I don't wanna be with her. I wanna be with Kaitlyn. But as soon as I said that my conscious starts talking "If Nash was texting Kaitlyn and said he missed her and she agreed you would be mad to" fuck. Then I hear a ding. It's Kaitlyns phone. She must have dropped it in here. I pulled over and looked at it.
New text from Nash<\3
Well since she went thru my phone I'll go thru hers
*N-Nash
K-Kaitlyn*
N-Kaitlyn baby can we please talk
K-No Nash you hurt me.
N-Baby please
K-stop calling me baby I'm not yours. I'm Shawns♥
N-Why are you giving up on us we spent forever together.
K-I didn't give up. You showed me I wasnt enough for you by cheating
N-Remember this
It was a picture of Kaitlyn in her cheerleading uniform and Nash in his football uniform right after State Championship. She was holding his helmet and they where kissing. Kaitlyn looked so happy.
K-yeah I remember. But I have someone better. I have him♥
And she sent a picture of me and her on her bed when we where high and cuddling with her head on my chest and me asleep. I didn't realize she took a picture
N-He will never be me
K-Good because he won't hurt me like you did.
N-wait till he hurts you. You'll come running back to me.
That's when the texts stopped. Now I feel terrible. I have to get back to her.
Kaitlyns pov
He's gone. Just like Nash. I wasn't good enough.
I got myself together a walked up to my bathroom. I locked the door and went to my old friend. My razor. The one thing that never left. I pulled up my shirt because I hadn't put pants on from last night. I looked at my thighs and saw how my scars where fading. Not for long.
One cut for Nash
One cut for Camila
Two cuts for Shawn
Three cuts for not being good enough
Two cuts for my parents never being here
One cut for all the pain I cause everyone.
10 cuts so far.
Then I heard the door open and close. "Kaitlyn baby" it was Shawn. Fuck. Oh well.
Two more for him finding me. I was silently crying and watching blood flow from my thighs. It was everywhere. On my shirt. The floor everywhere. Shawn came to the door "Baby you in there?" Shawn asked. "No Camila isn't here" I replied. "Baby please I'm sorry. I don't want her. I want you and your pretty blue eyes and gorgeous brown hair and that smile that could light up the darkest room. Baby please I realized how wrong I was." Shawn said. I started crying again. "Baby let me in" he pleaded. "I can't" I said and he heard. "Then I'm coming in" and he started picking the lock. "SHAWN NO!" I backed up furthest from the door and held my blade in my hand. He came in and saw me. My head on knees, bawling, bleeding. "KAITLYN!" Shawn said and slid over to me. "Baby please look at me" he pleaded
Shawns pov
She raised her head. I saw the most heartbreaking thing. I hurt the girl that ment everything to me. Her eyes red and puffy with
tears constantly flowing. Her hair looked like she ran her hands thru it a million times and she was steadily shaking. Then I saw all the blood. "I just wanna be good enough Shawn" she whispered. "Nobody wants me Shawn. Not you, not Nash, not my parents. Nobody." She sobbed into my chest. "Baby your more than enough. Your way to good for me. I messed up. Its you I want. Nobody but you. You stole my heart and I don't want it back." I said pouring my heart out. "Shawn?" She asked. "Yes baby." I replied "help me" she said shaking. I opened her hands and took the bloody blade from her. "Everytime you put one cut on yourself your going to put two on me." I said looking her in the eyes and handing her the blade. "Shawn I can't do that." She said pushing the blade away. "Well everytime you cut I want you to remember putting twice the amount of cuts on me." Then I flushed her blade and took a rag and wet it. I gently cleaned the blood off her send put bandages on them. I and took a sharpie and wrote my name just below the cuts. "Everytime you want to cut look at this and think of me and how much you mean to me.". I scooped her up walked to her room and handed her a big black tee shirt and soft gray cloth shirts that came to her upper thigh so she wouldn't stain them with blood. "Shawn will you help me I feel so weak" "of course baby girl" I lifted her shirt and unhooked her bra, I then put the shirt on her and slip the shorts on her. I then took off my shirt and blue jeans and threw on my red plaid sleeping pants and a white v-neck. "Baby I'll be right back lay down please" I went downstairs to her kitchen and got out a tub of her favorite Cotton Candy ice cream and me some Chocolate Fudge ice cream and two spoons.I went back to Kaitlyns room and handed Kaitlyn her ice cream and she smiled at me. "Thank you babe" she said smiling and taking a spoonful of ice cream. I took her Wii remote and turned on Netflict and started watching Family Guy to make her laugh and get her mind off everything. She layed against my arm and I wrapped it around her and kissed her head. I silently watched her laugh at the tv and eat ice cream and I saw something I never saw in Camila. All I saw in Camila was lust. In Kaitlyn I saw love and so much more.
