Forever loving you

Do I do it?

Warning: this is a bit of a touchy chapter so if you aren't good with suicide then I suggest you skip this chapter.

I wandered around the streets for hours, trying to take my mind of everything that had happened.

"I FINALLY FOUND YOU!" I heard someone scream, I turned around and saw another one of my bestfriends Sasha. I waited for her to catch up to me, she stopped placing her hands on her knees catching her breath back.

"Wait, what do you mean 'finally found you?'" I questioned, she put her finger up as if to say give me a moment.

"Jess text me and told me she didn't know where you were and that Luke had rang her and told her ran off and we have all been looking for you for hours!" She panted, yeah of course they were all looking at me. Why would they care? I'm just me, no one is interested me, I'm just Jai's ex girlfriend. That's all I'll ever be. Tears filled my eyes as I looked at the ground.

"Well you found me, so you can all go back to living your lives!" I smiled, Sasha stood in front of me and placed her arms on my shoulder.

"What's up? I'm taking you home, we care about you Emily." She stated.

"Just leave me alone okay! I'm not going home, just let me be!" I snapped, I started running again, I didn't even do this much running during PE.

"EMILY HOLD UP!" Jai screeched as I ran along then beach, I kept running, I looked behind me and he was catching up. I felt him grab my wrist which made me stop, he spun my around and wrapped his arms around my waist.

"Jai just leave it..." I whimpered. The image was clear in my head, the girl was all over him.

"She meant nothing, I tried to get her off but she wouldn't budge. The boys got her off me!" He whispered, I looked up into his arms and he was crying. I locked my lips with his and the tears fell down my face faster.

Memories played back through my mind as I ran, I collapsed on to my knees and sobbed harder. Why did I get the fucked up life? There was a cliff not to far away from here, maybe it would be better to end it all now then I wouldn't have to be in pain anymore. I got up and dried my eyes, I walked through the back lanes and I finally ended up on the cliff edge.

"Goodbye cruel world!" I stated, I looked down and I felt someone's arms wrap around my waist. They pulled me back and I tried to shake them off but they wouldn't let go. I turned around and saw Jai there, I broke down once again. I heard people talking, I lifted my head up and saw everyone stood there. I mean everyone, Jess, Sasha, Beth, Holly, Anna, James, Daniel, Beau and Luke. They were all looking at me, tears fell down there faces.

"Emily, talk to me please!" Jai whispered. I went to open my mouth but I heard someone shout.

"Jai, baby, where are you?" I looked behind them and saw a girl walking over to us, Jai let go of me and walked over to her. He hugged her and she kissed him passionately.

"Who's that Jai?" She pouted, I looked at the others and they sent me an apologetic look.

"This is Emily!" He frowned, she looked me up and down and turned her nose up. Beau walked over to me and wrapped me in a hug, he rubbed my back and told me everything was going to be fine. He told me to go and wait with the others so I stood with Sasha and Jess, they took my to the car and we got in.

"We are going back to yours and we aren't leaving you! We are going to stay at yours for a while okay?" The stated, I nodded my head and Beau, Daniel and Luke got in the car.

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A/N

So guys, if anyone is feeling suicidal or suffering with self harm, or even feeling depressed, I just want go say I hope everything becomes better for you because I know what it's like to feel like this.