Forever loving you

What have I done?

Emily's POV

Luke Hemmings. Luke Robert Hemmings was laid next to me, I sat up and ran my hands through my hair. Where was Sasha and Jess?

"Luke, what actually happened last night?" I panicked, I turned around to face him and then I realised that I was exposed again. I wrapped the bed cover around my body as Luke bit his lip, he pulled his lip ring between his teeth.

"So you know who I am?" He frowned, he closed his eyes and put his hands over his face. "You didn't sleep with me because I'm famous did you?" He questioned, my heart sunk as the words left his mouth.

"Luke of course I didn't! I didn't even know who you were last night, you wouldn't be the first famous person either..." I gulped, Jai. I forgot about Jai, but he broke me so why couldn't I have fun.

"Emily, you don't need to li- wait what? I'm not the first?" He questioned, I looked down at my lap. He had white bedsheets on, I played with my fingers as he watched me intently.

"I'm Jai Brooks ex, you know from the Janoskians?" I whispered, he sat up and looked straight at me. 

"He's just got with another girl hasn't he?" He questioned, I nodded my head and Luke sat in front of me. He took my hand and held it in his, I looked up at him, he looked really good. "Last night was fun, but maybe we should just put that behind us and pretend it never happened?" He thought, I nodded my head and smiled at him. "Come on, let's go and have some breakfast!" He smiled, I stood up of out the bed and went to put my dress one when he threw me a top and some sweat pants.

"Thanks!" I smiled, he quickly got changed as did I. I followed him downstairs and we went into the kitchen, I heard people talking. They must be his band mates and girlfriends, I followed behind Luke and everyone became quiet.

"Have a fun night last night?" I heard some smirk, I came out from behind Luke and looked at everyone.

"Sasha?" I said, my mouth dropped as she looked up at me. Michael looked at her then back at me, Ashton was cooking breakfast.

"Guys, I've got someone for you all to meet!" I heard a voice chirp, Calum, I turned around and there stood Jess.

"Emily? Sasha?" She laughed.

"You all know each other?" Ashton laughed loudly.

"Bestfriends actually!" Sasha smirked. I started laughing and so did the girls. The boys just looked between us as we all laughed, I looked at Jess and she had her hand laced with Calum's.

"Luke, where is my phone?" I questioned, I looked up at him and he shrugged his shoulders. I ran back upstairs and into Luke's room, I looked around and my phone was under his bed along with my bra and underwear. I grabbed it and saw I had multiple missed calls and messages, there was about 100 from Luke, 20 from Beau, 37 from James, 58 from Daniel and 150 from Jai. I checked my last message from Jai and it said.

'From Jai:
You know what Emily? Fuck you. You never meant anything to me anyway! Go and sleep around, see if I care.'

'From Luke:
What have you done? Jai tells you he loves you and go home with someone else? You are not what I ever thought you would be, you've changed for the worst.'

'From Beau:
Are you being serious, you fuck my brother over. You slept with someone else Emily, I think you want sit down and think about what you have done.'

They hate me, my phone vibrated in my hand. James. My eyes filled with tears as I read his message.

'From James:
Emily, I never thought I would have to say this to you ever but I can't believe what you have done. I didn't think you would ever become this person, Jai told you he loved you. You go and fuck someone else, I think you might want to rethink everything before you contact any of us. Goodbye J'

"Emily? You okay?" I heard Sasha shout, she stood in the doorway of Luke's room and looked at me. "What's happened?" she panicked, she ran over to me and sat down on the bed.

"They all hate me Sasha. Jai told me he loved me and I went and fucked someone else. I've screwed up Sash, you should have let me die on the cliff, then none of this would have happened!" I cried, I pushed her off me and ran downstairs. I ran out of the door, I heard people shouting my name as I ran but I didn't stop, why me? I kept running until I came to the cliff again. I sat on the edge and looked over, tears fell down my cheeks.

"I'm sorry to everyone I have hurt, I wish you all a better life now with me not in it. Mum, Dad and Josh, I'm sorry it has come to this but it's the best thing for me right now, I don't deserve to live. I love you lots and lots. Girls, I'm sorry about all of this, keep partying hard, don't let me get in the way anymore. I love you girls. Luke, Daniel, Beau and James, boys, you are going to far and gain millions more fans, keep at what you are doing. Never give up, I love you. Jai, you are my love. My only love, you are my rock. You have saved me once but unfortunately this time you can't, I've done the damage and now I need to pay for it. I hope you have the happy family you deserve, I love you baby!" I cried, I stood up and closed my eyes, the wind whipping around my body.