Troye
27.03.15
3:47 p.m.
"Troye? Troye!" I hear a feminine voice scream in front of me. I open my eyes and see Zoe's face in front of me. Wasn't I just in Tyler's room? Did I faint or something? I hope I wasn't dreaming.
"Where's Tyler?" I ask, not even caring if Zoe was next to me or not. Zoe looks at me with a blank expression and she just starts crying. I quickly get up from the bed and pull out all the tubes from my body an I run to Tyler's room. I open the door and I see a doctor and Jackie crying. My eyes were beginning to water. I didn't even know what was happening. No one seemed to care if I was in the room or not. I look over to Tyler after hearing a long beeping noise that indicates... That indicates...
That indicates that Tyler is dead.
I ran out of the room and out of this fucking hospital filled with deaths and sadness. I didn't know what was happening. I was heartbroken. I was devastated that he's gone.
Honestly, I don't know how I feel about this whole entire thing. Someone that I love just...
Just died.
Left me.
Destroyed me.
Forgotten me.
I don't know how to react to all of this, except to cry. My heart feels like 90 percent of it was ripped out of my fragile body. I couldn't walk. I couldn't talk. But I could cry. For hours. For days. For weeks. For months. For years. Forever.
I didn't even realise that I was sitting outside in the rain. Crying out my feelings. I didn't feel like moving anytime soon. In fact, I could just sit here forever and die. It seemed like a good idea.
So I did sit here forever and didn't move. I sat here for hours. Thinking too much about the person I loved the most in this cruel, depressing world.
Tyler Oakley.
Why did he have to die? Why couldn't I be the one to die? It wouldn't matter. And besides, I deserved to die. Tyler deserved someone better than me. And all he got was death.
The worst part about this was how I didn't even get to say goodbye to him. I didn't get to tell him that I loved him. I still do. I love him more than I love my sister or my brothers or my family. Tyler has always been there for me and I knew he always would be.
I was so lucky to even have Tyler in my life. To have him for the last year of his life. And now...
I was lucky to have him for the last year of my life.
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mini chapter bc i didn't rlly wanna write so much today bc
1. i didn't wanna give all of you heart attacks
2. it's my bday woo !! happy bday to me okay bye world
-camille
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forget me ➳ troyler au // THIRD //
FanfictionWhat should I do if I can't forget a boy that I have loved forever? ➳ © 2015 phntasia final book in the hold me trilogy TRIGGER WARNING ! contains self harm