I lose my friends a lot.
She tried to get away from him, I tried to get closer to him.
I lost.
I keep losing, and it hurts.
It's hard being friends with people you admire because little by little they destroy you without even knowing it. I try so hard to be the best at one thing, but I never am. It's always my friends that are so much better than me.
No wonder they ignore me, and they don't even notice it.
***
'why do you still like him?'
I hate this question.
Would you like to know why? Why I ever liked him in the first place?
He helped me be friends with the people I admire the most. I'll like him for a long time because of that.
Because I liked him, I was able to tell my friends and that brought us closer together.
But that's not the only reason why I ever liked him.
He smiled in every conversation we had. He laughs at all of my jokes. He listened to my stories, he didn't care that I liked anime or anything.
He didn't give a fuck that I was the weird girl his friends hated, he still talked to me.
That's why I like him.
***
This is the last Love Anonymous.
Goodbye, friends.
(no I am not committing suicide)
