Room 34B

Chapter 10- Am I dead or alive?

Tori's POV:

It's dark and it's cold in here, where am I? I open my eyes and sit up. I'm in a hospital room. Why? I look to my right and see Cat and Robbie holding hands as Cat sits on Robbies knee. She is crying. Why is Cat crying? What the fuck is going on? I stand up walk over to her, "Cat why are you crying? What's going on?" I ask her but there is no responce why won't she answer me? "Robbie, will Tori wake up?" I hear her ask Robbie. What does she mean will I wake up? I am right here, I am awake.

I turn round to look around the room. There I am, laying on a bed with wires coming out of me. What the fuck happened to me. "Well I gave her some of my blood, so it should help babe." I hear Robbie say in response to her question. Cat places a giant stuffed giraffe and card saying Get Well Soon on it on my bedside table and then they leave. Am I in a coma? Next thing I know Andre and Beck walk in. "Andre please tell me you can hear me? Please Andre!" I say as they walk in and take a seat. "So dude you are my bestfriend right?" Beck said after a moment of silence. "Course man what's up." Andre said in reply.

Beck takes a deep breath and sighs, "I think Jade and I are over," Andre looks at him with great confusion as Beck continues, "So a little over a month ago she has been acting different, I mean we aren't what we used to be. I know Jade isn't the most affection of all people but latly she has distanced her self from me and I think there is an other guy." What Jade wouldn't cheat on Beck, she loves Beck too much. "Well what are you going to do about it then?" Andre said to Beck with some simpathy in his voice. Beck looked to the ground and then back to Andre, "I think I'm just going to have to confornt her and tell her we are over." No poor Jade she doesn't deserve this she is too good to be dumped like this. "Are you sure man because you and Jade are pretty good together." Andre said trying to comfort Beck about the whole situation.

"Yeah, I mean she doesn't seem happy and neither am I." Beck finishes and ends the conversation. They both get out of their chairs and walk towards me. Beck gives me a kiss on the cheek and walks towards the door waiting for Andre. "Dude you go on I just want a minute alone with Tori." and with that Beck leaves Andre alone with me. I wish he could hear me, all I want to know is what happened. Andre pulls the chair closer to me and hold my hand. "Look Tori I don't know if you can hear me but if you can I just want you to know that Jade told me the truth about what happened between you two and all I want to know is why you didn't talk to me about it? I'm your best friend aren't I? And for the record I still love you just the same and you shouldn't be ashamed for being gay, I mean who can blame you chicks are h.o.t. hot." Andre said with a giggle to try and lighten the atmosphere. I just wish I could get up and give him a hug. He is the best, best friend you could ever have.

"Ok bye Tori I hope you get better soon." Andre said those final words and left the room. I tried to follow him but when I got to the door I couldn't go through it, no matter how hard I tried I just couldn't. So I just sat back down on my bed. About a minuets or so later I heard the door rattle and when I looked up it was Jade. As soon as she looked at me she gasped and nearly broke down into tears. She pulls a chair over and doesn't say a word. She sits there for a good hour maybe more I don't really know, my hand in her's and watches my heart monitor. She just sits there listening to it go beep, beep , beep. Oh Jade I wish she would stop blaming her self. I wasn't her fault.

I wish I could tell her about what Beck said. It would break her heart if he broke up with her and no matter how much I want to be with her I still want her to be happy and her breaking up with Beck is going to kill her. I just really don't want to see her upset. She has sat there for over an hour now and she hasn't got up to go and get coffee, now that's a first. Normally she would be buzzing for it by now.

After a while she turns to me, away from the monitor. She interlocks our finger and as tears start to come to her eyes, " Tori I am so so sorry..." aww Jade don't be please. And after a moment of hesitation she said, "I love you too." Oh My Fucking God did Jade just say I love you? And to me? Someone who is not Beck. I wish I could just wake up from this trance and tell her I love so fucking much.

Jade gets up to go but before she walks out the door she leans over me, and places and small kiss on my lips and says, "I love you so much Victoria Vega and I am so sorry it took this for me to relies how much I do love you."