I'm broken

Younger👆🏻. 👆🏻know
This is me before my mum died and me know
I'm 17 and broken the whole world has given "up" on me, I have been abandoned by the people who mean the most. I have felt like this ever since my mum died she was so young so beautiful If only I could go back and change that moment the moment my first love killed her the shock, the terror.
I clearly had to brake up with him
he replied "but what about us, you will wish you never did this Zoe you will regret your life."
And as he spoke those few words I knew he was right.
I saw him every day wanting to say sorry I couldn't but I should have because now he had seemed to turn everyone against me they mocked me like I had done something wrong but I don't know what
I cried and cried, enough tears were shed to fill the ocean.