we left the the lazer tag place and we saw the three boys again they saw Michael and I giggled at the fact I won lazer tag I usually suck but I guess really didn't want to look like a dumbass in front of Michael. he wouldn't tell me where we were going once again we got out at a park and Michael got the skate boards out of the trunk and handed me one he lead me to a path and he dropped his skateboard and hopped on and made his way down the path. he was waiting for me I could tell he told me before he got on " it takes us to the place we need to go" I just nodded. I was afraid that I was going to fall on my ass in front of this Beautiful boy and as you can tell I'm a over thinker I'm 17 and I'm still afraid to drive because I have a fear of crashing I have a fear of falling apart I have a fear of love and who will break my heart you don't choose love chooses you and I'm just afraid love will put me in a place were it hurts to much to go and it hurts to stay , my parents had that kinda relationship and they only stayed together for Evan and I and it hurt them and it hurt me to know my mother was unhappy with what love chose for her and she didn't get a chance to change it all I think now is that she died unhappy and that is the worst feeling to me disappointment. I fear disappointment I fear that I will disappoint everyone I fear love won't choose me because love isn't real all people are assholes so I don't believe in all that shit about happy endings because I know I'm not going to get mine love is for people who deserve it and the people that believe, I don't believe in love nor do I deserve it I know love is a killer and it makes people do crazy ass shit to prove they are worthy of love, but I'm not going to try to prove anything if I'm worthy love than I am if I'm not than I am not I can't do anything about it, but this boy makes me think different of love he makes me see it as a savior not a killer he makes me feel different and bubbly inside I don't know if that is good or bad, but back to the part of me being afraid of falling on my ass. I hopped on the board and I was off I was swerving a lot but I was still going,Michael wasn't to far away and I got distracted by looking at the Beautiful boy and I ran into a tree "shit" I said Michael ran to me I hit my knee pretty damn hard "Fuck,ow" I said a little too loud "are you okay?" he asked "um...not really my knee hurts like a bitch" "ok" he looked at my knee I had a big scratch "I have a first aid kit in my car I'll be right back" he said he was gone for about 2 minutes and he came back with a little red bag with a white + sign on it he put some spray on my scratch and the a bandage he picked me up bridle style and walked the rest of the way he was looking at the path and I was looking at his muscles that were clearly showing, he set me down on a bench and there was a little pond in front of it "Liv" "yea" "tell me about your-self,like your story" "well um I well I was born in Sydney and when I 8 years old I moved to Ohio because my mom got a job there when I was 13my mom died in a car crash and my dad started drinking he beat Evan and I till we were 15 then he met Rachel and he ignored us for awhile and then he married her, Evan and I didn't go to the wedding because Rachel didn't want us there and my dad agreed with her, my dad hates me because I look so much like my mother and he blames everything on me and Evan, and when I'm 18 1/2 he is kicking me out of the house so his little whore who is like 23 and him can have a child that will probably end up being a prostitute and most likely my dad won't even be the father and I will probably have to take care of it so my dad can drink till his bank account is dry and Rachel can go fuck a million guys for money" "wow that's a lot, I'm sorry" "it's okay Michael it's not your fault" "Liv it makes you feel any better I lost my dad to cancer when I 13" " I'm sorry Michael" I said and I gave him a hug I pulled away to see Michael with a frown "what's wrong?" I asked "I ruined the fucking date" he said he was now looking at his feet "no you didn't" " yea I did I made you think about sad shit" " well life is sad shit Michael so there is no way you could have avoided it" "I love how you tell stuff like it is" " wow your the only person who has said that to me, most people find it sad and depressing and they live a lie with fake shit surrounding them that they think makes them happy but deep down I think they all know it's not real" "damn that was deep" he said I laughed "that's not as deep as this, knowledge is knowing that a tomato is a fruit and wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad" he laughed and said"that was super deep" "I know right" we laughed and Michael whispers "shit" "what's wrong?" I asked "um one of those skate boards is my friend Ashton's and he will kill me if anyone stole it" "okay, get your ass up" I said while getting up and running with Michael behind me holding my hand we stopped at the sight of two dudes riding the skate boards one with long hair that was curly and the other has kinda long hair "excuse me" I said they both looked up "what do you want bitch" bitch that word echoed in my head "bitch?!" I said I sprung forward grabbing his long hair "ow,let me go you crazy ass" " I thought I was a bitch not a crazy ass" "well I only called you that because you were hanging out with faggot over there" he pointed to Michael and he looked down " pulled the boys hair hard and said " faggot, well you Piece of shit go fuck your self" let go of his hair and grabbed the skate board I looked the other boy who looked like he was terrified for his life just handed me the board with out a word I walked to Michael and gave him a kiss on the lips and I pulled away and said "how much of a faggot is he now boys?" I turned to see the boys staring they looked at each other for a second and then they ran in the opposite direction, I turned to Michael and asked "why was that asshat calling you a faggot" "um-well I don't sleep around and people just assumed that I was gay so they all call me faggot and that's why girls don't like me, and I probably scared you away didn't I" "no you didn't I'm was afraid that I scared you away" "no,babe you didn't, you wouldn't be able to scare me away" I hugged him and we left the park and went to his house he took me to his room and the house was quiet because his mom wasn't home and. he didn't have siblings, that lucky bastard we were in his room and I got a full look and I saw all of his guitars and I thought about how hot he would look on stage in his muscle shirt singing his heart out, just damn , Focus Liv I said to myself he asked if I wanted to watch a movie and asked witch one out of the pile "avengers,mean girls, Scott pilgrim vs. the world, dirty dancing and Ted" and of course he chose the girly movies when I was here so I choose Ted because I was in the mood to laugh my ass off we were watching the movie as we cuddled because Michael want to show me how he was the cuddle king and I let him cuddle me because to be honest why the hell not a hot dude wants to cuddle me,so let it happen right in the middle of the movie Michael asked me "do you believe in love?"
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R.I.P Ashton's long hair😭 first Luke's quif and not to mention Calum dying his hair dark brown again and Michael with blonde hair just too much to take in, but I love the boys no matter what and I will always support them❤️-Liv🐧
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Fanfic"Michael" "yes" "love isn't real" "yes it is" "then show me"
