Imagery

Uknown

I look at myself in the mirror
Hair a mess
Eyes dully starring
Its a familiar view
Makeup smeared creating black tears
Cracked lips
Pierced nose
"Who is this stranger?"
I touch my lips and feel the dry dead skin
The roughness lightly scratches my fingertips
I lick my lips and taste the salt of tears
The taste of blood
The sting of saliva on my lips
I look at my finger nails
Paint chipped
Dry blood and dirt underneath
"Gross.."
I look down at the sink
Pill bottles littered around
Pills on the floor
I twist the rusted faucet on
The sound of water fills the room
I cup my hands under the stream
I splash my face with the cold water
Some runs down my neck into my shirt
I grab the hand towel
And i dry off my face
I look back into the cracked mirror
My makeup looks worse
"Oh well"
I run my fingers through my long dirty hair
Trying to find comfort
The greasy strands fall in my face as my hand leaves my head
I look into my own eyes
The shine has long left them
The bags underneath are dark circles
The chocolate color less vibrant
"Am i sure?"
I look down at the floor to my right
The object black and cold
It carried death
I pick it up
It feels heavy in hand
But lighter than my life
It hangs at my side in hand
I look back in the mirror
"No one knows or cares about me. I'm unknown"
I grip the black cold object in my right hand.
"Me being here makes no difference in this world"
I start to tremble
"Will i go through with this?"
A tear streaks my face again
I lift the object to my head
I stare at it for a moment trembling
"I wish i was known"
I close my eyes and hold my breath
I listen to my heart beating
A steady drum in my ears
"But..uknown is what i am..."
My finger tenses and pulls the trigger
At last im home
Home in the unknown