Save Me From Us

Ghost

Lori

I sat in the parking lot of Odell's range rover for over two hours before I finally decided to go into rehab facilitation. I probably shouldn't have met Trey where he wanted to meet me, but there were a shit load of people here, and I doubt he'd try anything foolish in the presence of his mother.

Working up the nerve I shut the car off and rested my head on the steering wheel beginning to recite a silent prayer.

To say I was scared, would be a complete understatement. My ass was absolutely petrified. I felt like I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Usually I was able to handle my emotions, and keep my composure very well but after being pregnant and releasing my emotions when I didn't want too, it felt like a fucking flood gate.

I hated expressing my emotions like this, but I'd rather do it alone then to cry a river and place my problems on somebody else. This is yet another reason why I couldn't bare my soul to Odell. He still had some shit he needed to deal with and me adding to it wasn't going to make anything better.

I thought that me being my own rock would help me, but I was sadly mistaken. It'll be the fucking death of me.

I removed the seat belt from off my chest, unlocked the door and stepped out of the car feeling the sudden breeze massage my cheeks. I licked over my dry lips, and pulled Odell's shirt by the sleeves as I let my fists ball up.

If someone were to ask me right after the incident would I ever give Trey the chance to plead his case, I'd probably punch that person dead in the mouth for trying to disrespect me like that but months later here I am. My chucks hit the pavement roughly as I damn near felt myself running into the building.

I was a bit too eager for my liking but I needed answers. Not an excuse or an apology but and answer as to why he'd intentionally hurt me. Answers as to why he damn near killed my boyfriend. To why he damn near killed me?

Part of this, I brought on myself. I should have listened to Odell when he told me to stay away from him, but I didn't. I continued to fuck around with Trey knowing how he felt about me. I just didn't think that would lead to an obsession. I didn't think he'd like me that much.

When I hit the security desk the I felt my nerves begin to take over. My hands shook uncontrollably as I tried to keep my composure.

"Straight to the back, and make a left. Step out onto the patio and into the garden. That's where everyone is." The short, damn near balding old man asked not bothering to glance up from his newspaper.

I guess he still must have felt my presence because I was totally stuck on stupid.

"You are here for the party right?" The guard asked in a condescending tone. I felt my eyebrows narrow together. I wasn't in the right state of mind right now and I was willing to go off on him but I figured let me not. I wouldn't want to embarrass myself no more than I already did, or was going too.

I pursed my lips together standing on the balls of my feet, "Well if that's where Trey is, then I guess so. Do I have to sign in or anything?" I mumbled feeling my phone send a quick jolt through my pocket. I removed it from my back side and saw Odell' face on the screen.

I don't have the time for him. Sliding the ignore button I picked up the blue pen and wrote my name before feeling my phone go off again.

"What Odell?" I said lowly into the phone hearing him suck his teeth into the phone. I know he didn't have a fucking attitude.

"Lori where are you?" He asked. I could tell he was out and about some where but I didn't feel like paying attention to the back ground noise. Instead I was about to be faced with some my own back ground music.