Journal Entries of the Mentally Unstable

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January 27 Thursday

Well yesterday was a little terrifying. Not because of Ever although she dose kind of seem creepy. But it was mostly because of Rylee when I bumped into her I really thought she might kill me. Lately she's become extra violent especially towards me. Not that I did anything wrong she just hates me because Sunny hates me but when you think about it Sunny is just a reflection of Rylee so I guess Rylee just hates me for no reason. Well I have some great news my therapists Ms. Kantler told me that I have been doing really well in therapy and I haven't had an episode since the whole knife thing but that wasn't even me so. As a kind of test to see if I'm truly ready to leave they've decided to put a mirror in my room. Now it doesn't sound like a whole lot like a mirror who doesn't own a mirror but as you might remember I have Catoptrophobia fear of mirrors. So yea quite the big deal but if I can handle a mirror maybe I really will be ready for the real world and all its dangers and people and dangers.

January 28 Friday

Well the mirror has been in my room now for exactly three hours. I was doing fine but in all honesty I had yet to actually look at it but just knowing it was there made my chest tighten up. I hadn't even looked into to the cold depth of the other reality yet and I was not looking forward to going to sleep with it just right next to me above the dresser. Perhaps I could cover it with a blanket. That would still involve me having to look at it even if it was only a moment. It was getting close to lights out and I still wasn't sure if I could handle it yet maybe ever. I'll just try to keep my mind off the whole reality/mirror thing. I'll tell you about my day as a distraction.

Other then the whole mirror thing it was a pretty normal day. I went to group therapy with Tate, Rylee (who stared at me the whole time) Laken, Raelynn and Ever (who also started at me the whole time, I had quite the fan club). It went pretty normal I learned a little bit more about the new girl. Apparently her father died recently, she had a little sister and that she heard voices. I already knew that bit though. Ms. Kantler also tried to get Realynn to take her morning medicine and naturally Raelynn refused yelling about conspiracies and betrayal. This went on for like half an hour then The Rabbits had to force feed her them just like they did every morning. It never grew old if anything just funnier the twentieth time. They just announced lights out its time to face my fears. Now or never.

January 29 Saturday

I made it through the night without a crazed version of me trying to kill me and take my life. I'm pretty proud of myself. I mean sure I didn't sleep at all and if I had a weapon I would have been holding it all night. But still I might just get out of here yet, now all I had to do was over come the rest of my phobias or at least the ones that don't happen everyday. Like touching people. That ones going to be tough. Just thinking about another persons skin makes me cringe.

Today is the weekly party day. Which is pretty pointless we don't do anything special but wear normal peoples clothes. Except of course no belts, necklaces or shoelaces in fact no shoes at all. Apparently shoes were so dangerous. But I did have this image of Rylee strangling me with a necklace so that ones probably for the best. It was an average party they were playing If Your Happy and You Know It. Oddly enough no one clapped except for a women in her mid thirties who was wearing a long tie-dyed dress that went to the floor. Like I said normal party. Ever tried to talk to me but the conversations just kept coming back to the fact she had voices in her head that wanted to kill everyone. She also tried to get me to dance but that involved touching her hand which I don't do. Mid-way through the party a Rabbit came up to me and told me I had a visitor. The whole time that I have been at The Sunny Shelter not once has anyone come to visit me. Not my family or friend. And yes I meant for there to be no S at the end of friend. I made my way to the room with all the tables that the visits were held. When I got there I was shocked to find my father sitting in the chair. He always ignored the fact that I was crazy and had been sent here. He did the same to my mom even now he wouldn't accept that she killed herself and was crazy. What could he possible be doing here.