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chapter 3 - remember

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I looked outside my Window to see that everything was just a dream.
But how ? It felt so real .
It seemed to be around 12 am , that's pretty late for me to wake up .
I should go and ask my mom if she needs something .
Walking down the stairs I wondered what it might be to join the Survey corps .
Ever since that day I wanted to join them but back then I was only 8 years old .
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                       Flashback
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I was picking flowers with Rose my best friend  ( if your name is Rose just change it to Maria or Sina ) .
Her parents are both wall worshipers so they named her after wall Rose  .
Her and my parents couldn't like each other because , my Dad is one of the survey corps commandant Erwin smith to be exact.
I didn't see him that much but when I'm 12 I want to join the trainees so that I can become one of the survey corps .
My mother doesn't like the idea of me "getting myself killed " so does my best friend  .
" hey look at that beautiful flowers , I really want some of them for my flower bouquet " Rose said .
" yes they are really beautiful . I wonder what kind of flowers the world behind those cage like walls got " I asked myself loud.
Rose only sighed " you still want to kill yourself  !? Throw away your life for nothing ? The only thing you're going to be is Titan food !!" She screamed at me .
" I understand if your worried about me but I only got one big dream and that is freedom, a life without those walls holding us in place "
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hat's when she totally snapped " you're stupid, I don't understand why I'm friends with you ! But guess what ! My parents are right about you and your family.  You are not worth it , I don't want to be your friend anymore ! Good bye and have a great life until you get eaten !" I stood there in shock , the flowers I picked earlier that day still in my hand .
But they soon dropped on the ground with me on my knees .
I sat there and sobbed silently, why ? Five minutes ago we were like the best friends and now she doesn't want to see me anymore ?
I know she doesn't want me to die , but one day I will day and that's for sure .
So why not for a good cause ?
I should probably walk for a while maybe watch some pathetic garisson people do their " job " .
That's when I saw eren yeager, secretly I admire him .
I mean I would want to kill all those damn titans on his side.
He was talking with those guy from the garisson, hannes.
I didn't hear what they were talking about but I could tell that eren was pissed ,  I saw it in his shining green eyes .
Then he walked away in my direction.
I quickly hit behind a barrel, because I don't want him to see my .
I'm as red as a tomato because of a this awesomeness coming from him .
When he passed by I saw him looking in my direction .
Hopefully he hasn't  saw me .
" what are you doing behind that barrel ?"
Seems like luck isn't on my side today.
" Ehm .... i' m hiding?  "  I honestly wanted to talk to him for a eternity but didn't got the chance to do so .
"Was that a question or an answer?  " he asked with his angelic voice.
" I don't know maybe a quanswer" .
At that answer he started to laugh  " you funny aren't you  ?".
I didn't want to get to know him on this way but know here we go .
" do you think so ? " I asked .
"Yes " he answered " but I still want do know why you are hiding "
" I 'm hiding because I wanted to stalk the garisson people ...."
"Hey that's my hobby ! , ok I like calling them -" I interrupted him saying   "pathetic " .
He smiled " that's what they are right? " yes they are pathetic ! "  I smiled.
" do you want to hang out with me and mikasa ? " he asked .
At the name mikasa my heart stopped beating for a second .
Who is mikasa ? Is mikasa his girlfriend? 
Then I noticed some girl standing a few meters behind him .
I didn't saw her before.
Honestly I'm jealous but I don't want eren to think that I have a crush on him so I acted like nothing is going on .
" yes I would like to but .... I think I should find my best friend Rose .
We had a little fight about one hour ago , maybe tomorrow  ? " I said to them while making a friendly face .
" Ok , then it will be tomorrow " he said and run off.
Ok then I will look for Rose ,  I should look for her at her home but her parents can't stand me because I want to fight for humanity's freedom .
So I should look at our tree .
The tree , we actually call him yggdrasil I've read in some books about the tree of the world .
This tree means the world to us , it's the tree were we first met and the only place we're we actually can see each other because her parents wouldn't go in the near of the wings of freedom.
The tree is only 500 meters away from survey corps training grounds.
Sometimes I sneak a peek on the training soldiers.
For me they are so admirable and brave .
Some other people think they are stupid, but some day I will be one of them I swear .
I was trying to find Rose when I heard some bells ring .
The hero's are coming back ...... but I have to find my best friend .
I finally saw her leaning against a stone .
"Rose ! " I called out to her .
She looked to me and then on the floor. ... again .
I run to her " Rose I'm really,  really sorry . I know you just want me to life in safety , the walls are existing just for that but I can't life with myself if I just stand here doing nothing while all these people die ." I explained .
She looked at me tears streaming down her face but she was wearing a smile .
" I'm sorry to , I want to fight by your site " she said .
" w-what" "I want to fight against the Titans ! " .
"W-why " I asked " why do birds have wings when they are caged ?" .
I smiled to her , suddenly there was a loud thud coming from outside the walls .
Rose and I run to the gate where normally the survey corps people come home .
I looked up and there it was a titan bigger then the wall .
The he busted the gate and the wall .
The next thing I can remember is Rose being eaten .
Then my mind went blank .

Hey guys , sorry for the late updating .