Confide in Fear | DARYL DIXON •1

28- The Road Again

Alex's *POV*

After that little freak out near the group at Gabriel, I walked away from the group, my mind started to go fuzzy.

I couldn't live in this world anymore. I couldn't deal with all the bull shit Gabriel would always talk about.

I also couldn't take Daryl's silence, even though he was in pain. It was all too much for me... The walkers, the always being quiet. I also couldn't take it anymore- me confining in my fear- in everyone's fear.

I stopped walking, not too far from the group yet not too close either. I needed a break. I carefully slid down a tree, sitting on the dirt and roots of the tree around me. I closed my eyes, giving myself a breather, making sure my claustrophobia didn't kick in from me being confined in my thoughts, causing me not to breath. My mind and thoughts started to take me back- giving me mini flashbacks- from left and right- about my life before this apocalypse.

Things from my relationship with Ryan popped up, friendship memories with Vanessa, family moments from before I found my parents and sister dead in their house. It made me dizzy just thinking about how much and how quickly I've lost...

The more we walked on the same road, which led us nowhere so far, Daryl had became more and more distant from the group. Carol had tried to talk to him, when I told her he wouldn't talk to me. He would always find ways to get away from the group- like look for water, go hunting and even look for shelter. Either, he could be actually doing those things, or just wants to be alone.

I walked a little in front of the rest of the group, not paying attention to the quiet whispers of conversations some of them had. I rolled my eyes at the ground, thinking about not being friends with Ryan, Daryl ignoring me and this endless walk to nowhere.

My head started to get dizzy and the way I walked had changed from fast, to slow. I blinked a couple of times to try and continue walking and to make sure it was just all in my head. I shook my head, thinking that it would make me better, but that failed.

My bag fell out of my hands followed by my knife. I barely heard everyone yelling out my name, while hearing their boots hitting the concrete as they ran towards me.

"Alex!"

"Lex!" Another called out. I felt someone holding my head in their lap. I didn't even realized I had fallen to the ground. Blurry visions of people surround me was all I saw, and their voices calling my name.

"You're going to be okay." I heard one voice say quietly. Someone grabbed my hand. I tried to see who it was, but I just couldn't make it out. I squeezed the person's hand as I blinked harder. The dizziness made me feel so sick, like I was just going to pass out.

And I did.

Glenn's *POV*

"Is she going to be okay?" Maggie approached me, with the passed out Alex in my arms with a wet towel on her head.

"Think so. She's dehydrated, that's all."

"We need to find more water."

"I'll go." Daryl said from the back, walking towards me and Alex, near a tree on the side of the road.

"I'll go with you." Carol offered. "You could use company- some back up."

"I'll be fine." Daryl said.

"Hopefully she wakes up soon." Ryan had said, looking at Daryl walking away, then at Lex.

"We're in no rush." Maggie said at the same time I had said, "What do you care?"

"Because... She's- I'm always going to care for her. I love her, you know." He answered.

"Really? You do?" I say, furrowing my eyebrows. "If you did, her best friend wouldn't be dead right now! If you did, she wouldn't be mad at you before this world had turned into this, and your marriage-"

"Glenn!" Maggie yelled. "Stop. Please! She wouldn't want this."

"No, he needs to hear it. She won't love you the same, not anymore. Not when Daryl is protecting her, not when he's here." I said. "Not when he's here..."

"Daryl?" Ryan laughed.

"Yeah. Daryl."

"He doesn't own her." Ryan said.

"Yeah, I know. But neither do you."

But, hope you enjoyed this chapter! I quite enjoyed writing Alex's thoughts and what's going on in her mind. Gets me excited for the next few chapters and something else 😏

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