Maybe If I Just Did It Different

Chapter 10: This Feeling

Nate POV:

Shit man its going on a whole year. Since a nigga had his baby boy. I can't its time to grow up and get my baby back. This nigga know he want this dick so he need to stop playing with a nigga. "Fuck man damn", I screamed at the doc. "Sorry Mr.Nate I must of hit a nerve", he said in a sweet tone.
Getting my yearly test for HIV and all that other bullshit. I already know Preston. We not doing nothing until I see them papers. All I know is I'm about to go see him. Man this nigga better get ready for this monster because I'm not about to hold nothing at all.

As I left the doctors place next stop Katy, Texas. Yea I have been stalking my baby. Its a man that follows him around I'm surprised he haven't found out. I wouldn't be surprise if he already did and just making me think he don't know. Man that nigga crazy as fuck but man I'm in love with his ass. I'm moving back with him and everything daddy coming home. And I heard that Jason nigga still around. Let that nigga touch my shit beat his ass. Or make sure he dead this time.

Man I want my baby went back to the crib because I forgot his engagement ring. Man he gone be shocked.

Preston (POV)

"Jason stop playing I swear you childish", I screamed out. "I know I do, but when you ready for us to get serious then I will", he said in a serious tone. "Boy please", than continue to horse play. "Because that will never happen. You know I'm stuck on Nate you got nothing on him", I said getting serious. "You right I probably don't but he over there I'm here been here and still don't get nothing in return he chose to leave I'm still by your side still wanting you waiting for you. I know you miss me baby and I miss you too. I know I fucked up when you told me to get out the game. But I couldn't all I knew was that I had a mother sick at home with a baby sister. What I was doing was bad but it got the bills paid. Now I'm here with a women when we have sex I can only think of your moan she not sucking my dick right when I go in her I say to myself it feels weird. You know why it's feels like that because I'm still in love with you. It still fucks me up that you left me like that for that Cassie boy. He treated you like Shit. I never cheated I never did nothing wrong but love u and did my dirt. I'm a bullshit Ass nigga and I'm in love with you I never saw having a business life like a lawyer. But I know one thing I definitely see one with you as my man. I love you Preston and I want you to be my husband", he said with tears rolling down his face. "You waited this long to tell me how you feel. And know your upset that I'm in love with a person that will give up anything I need him to. He left because I was not myself and that was that and I trust that he is not doing nothing to hurt me right now. And Ik he still loves me because he got this man following me everywhere I go. (Tell Nate ugly Ass I said I'm not stupid please because that's so petty you could have came to see me instead of having a hit man follow my every move). The saddest thing I have to say. I miss you to daddy I really do Jason you were my everything you hear me like I told you. You did not have to be in that life style with my dad. I would have asked my daddy to buy her a house bills paid until she got better. And me and you could have went to Canada like we said we was. But no you put your pride in front of you and boom it happened. You got shot that fuck me up. It was so much blood everywhere. Trying to start that mess up in the south for my dad you came back in so much blood. I had to stitch you up so much I couldn't do it no more I had to leave and I know I left at the wrong time but to be real with you baby. I didn't think you were going to make it. You had so many cuts and wounds I called 911 and left you there with that boy you was with. That I never like I think his name was trey. (Me and trey never liked each other this nigga played my home girl man when I found out I had this nigga own gang jump him. I told him not to fuck with her no more. The Bitch that I always help Rosy found out and got upset. Thought she was tough so the dumb Bitch called the cops on me saying I had got him jumped and I was in a gang with me dad and stuff. We would have been in some trouble if she saw my dad but he never show his face around to my friends just one. And that was on accident and me and her been bff since that but in the process of all that I got Rosy ass sent early 6 feet under don't fuck with me fuck a rose and fuck a trey(he still alive Tho jus rosy and her family dead)). I'm glad you was alive but I knew then I couldn't see you no more because if I had lost you it wouldn't have been good on me for the love we had. But I can't put myself in that life no more daddy I can't as (I started crying on the floor). Like you don't know how much it hurt me to leave but Cassie wasn't all that bad down the line yea he got worse. But at first it was love nothing less. But you chose life over the one you love you never chose life over love. I rather be around love when I know I'm covered In it have to put my pride out because in life you are always going to have to but you pride out and most of the Fucking time it gets destroyed and guess what Jason. Life is so dark you can try to plain something and life turns it around and your stuck there lost like I did not see that coming. ( excuse me But ima preach right now because y'all don't get it). Life is bipolar you don't know when that Bitch going to change up on you. Like I changed my feeling for you Jason (this about to be some cold hearted Shit Preston bout to do) I remember I'd love you like you as my very first teddy bear had to take you everywhere I went if I lost you I had to find you because you was my favorite person in the world. Jason you was the king and I was your queen you left me to fight a war that you could never win. What a king with out his queen. The queen is the one that takes care of the house the king does the work. You chose mob life over the person you love most I couldn't deal with you after that and you almost died I thought it as better to leave you. I went a long time crying have bad dreams left my window open hopping you would sneak in and say baby I'm sorry and I you back I will give it all up. But you didnt Cassie was there ( getting off the floor whipping his tears) he picked up the piece you left on the bored he never finished the puzzle piece but Nate did now you will have to deal with that I'm sorry Jason that it has to be this way ( Jason trying to hold Preston and comfort him but Preston is pushing him off while Preston is speaking). But be t thing before you go Jason to show you I don't care", I said while he looks in a confusing face. I leaned up towards him and passionately kissed him like never did before. I backed away slowly and said," (I notice out my left eye I saw a shadow in the house I didn't care what it was at moment so kept talking). I had dream about us I guess my mom was right fairy-tales are way to good to be true. Because everything had planned turned into a disaster.

Nate POV:

So I walk into the house to see this motherfucker kissing Jason. What the fuck man beyond mad right now.

"WHAT IN THA FUCK MY NIGGA IS GOING THA FUCK ON", I screamed out of complete rage

They both turned around like they saw a ghost and that nigga Jason black asf he went a ghost color.