A Thug Series : Life And Possesion

Sha'Nae

"May I Ask Why We're Here Today?"

"I'm Getting Skinnier And I Want To Know What Is Wrong With Me. I've Tried Eating More. Nothing Works."

"Okay. Well We Could Run Some Tests And The Usual. This Maybe The Cause Of Stress Or Something Simple Like That. Just Be Patient And Prepare For The Worst While Hoping For The Best. For Now, Lets Get Your Height And Weight And All Of The Good Stuff. Then Afterwards Ill Ask You Questions And Go From There."

"Thank You."

"Its My Job Hun."

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"So I Basically Just Lose Weight Unwantingly. How? This Has Never Happened Before?"

"Stress, Depression, A Number Of Reasons. I Can Only Advise You Not To Stress To Much And Try To Stay Genuinely Happy. I Don't Think Depression Is The Problem. You Seem Very Happy Despite Your Visit So I'm Guessing It Mostly Relies On Your Stress Level. Could Work Be Your Source Of Stress?"

"Maybe."

"You May Want To Cut Down On Your Work Hours."

"I Have Children To Take Care Of. I Can't Cut Back My Hours."

"Your Stress Could Lead To More Serious Problems."

"Okay. Well I Know What Is Wrong With Me Now. I'm Not Cutting Back On My Hours. Work Doesn't Cause Me Stress. Thank You For Your Time. Come On Vonte." I Grabbed My Purse And Made My Way Out Of The Clinic And Was Soon Met With Vonte At The Car. Once Inside I Turned The Heat On And Waited For It To Warm Up.

"You Cutting Them Work Hours Sha'Nae."

"Why?"

"Its Obviously Stressing You Out."

I Had The Mind To Say That He Was The One Causing Me Stress But That Would Be A Lie And Start Up An Argument So I Decided Against It.

"We Have Three Babies."

"You Don't Even Need To Work Sha'Nae. None Of Us Do. We Do This Shit To Be Good Examples For The Kids And To Pass Time. You Don't Need To Work As Much As You Do. All You Gotta Do Is Go In To Your Shops A Couple Of Times A Week And Check Shit Out. Inventory, Reviews, Books, Cameras, Complaints. That Is It. You Cutting Back On Them Hours And I'm Not Playing. Take Me To My Kids Man."

"Our Kids."

"My Kids. Like I Said."

I Didn't Know What He Meant By That But It Caught A Nerve. I Knew That I Worked A Lot. I Also Knew That My Kids Missed Me Throughout The Day But I Was There When They Needed Me And When It Counted. I Make Sure To Have Breakfast Ready For Them In The Morning And See Them Off To School. I Come To Some Of The Twins And Treasure's Sports Games. I Make Sure To Have Dinner Ready And Check If Their Homework Is Done Correctly And That They're Showered And Bed Ready By Eight, Occasionally Letting The Twins Stay Up Until Nine On Fridays.

The Doctor Was Right, Work Was Putting Stress On Me But I Didn't Want To Mooch Off Of My Husband. I Wanted My Own Establishments And Something To Call Mine. He Did A Lot For Me And The Kids Already Sometimes Even Forgetting To Make Sure Himself Was Healthy. I Wasn't About To Become A Burden To Him.

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"Mama Nathan Won't Leave My Hair Alone."

"Ya Hair Ain't Even That Long Anyway."

"Excuse You Sir. I Have Inches."

I Giggled At The Twins As They Made Their Way Onto My Bed.

Vonte Has Been Ignoring Me Since We Made Our Way Home From The Doctors Visit. Now, He Surfed The Tv Channels Trying To Find Something Interesting. I Was On My Phone Until The Kids Had Come In.

I Couldn't Help But Stare At The Beautiful Children I Took Part In Making. They Had Grown So Fast.

Nate Has Such A Goofy Personality. You Barely See Him Angry Or Upset About Anything. He Didn't Play Ball Or Anything Like The Other Boys In The Neighborhood, He Could Play But He Loved Dancing More. Nivea Was A Girly Girl. Somewhat Like A Fashionista, Always Picking Out Everyone's Outfits And Things. Treasure Likes To Sing, Much Like Aniyah. They Took After My Mother And Shardae In That Department. She Had A Beautiful Voice And Was Always Singing The Latest Tunes.

My Babies Were My Everything And I'm Grateful To Have Such Blessings In My Life.

"Mama When I Get Older Can I Have Heels."

"No Because I Like My Heels And They Go With Different Outfits."

"Can You Buy Me Some Then? They Look So Cute On You. I Want To Be Pretty Too."

"Your Beautiful Baby." She Mumbled A Thank You To Me Before Sighing And Telling Everyone She Was Sleepy And Good Night. I Made A Mental Note To Have A Conversation With Her Soon About This Pretty Thing. It Seemed Like Her Whole Mood Changed Negatively When I Called Her Pretty.

"Mama. Can I Join A Hip Hop Dance Class."

"I Could Look Into It."

"Thank You."

"Your Welcome Baby But Before I Do You Going To Have To Pick Them Grades Up."

"Them Classes Are Hard Mama. I Don't Even Need To Know All That Bull--"

"Watch Your Mouth Boy." Tre'Vonte Said Sternly. He Recieved A Yes Sir Before Reverting His Attention Back To The Tv.

"I Know Them Grades Better Be Up On That Next Report Card. No Less Than A B."

"What If I Make A C?"

"Then You Gon Be Dancing In Your Room And Outside Like You Been Doing. School Comes First Boy."

"Yes Ma'am.'

"Go Get Ready For Bed. I Need To Talk To Your Daddy." He Told Us Good Night Before Leaving The Room And Closing The Door Behind Him.

"Can You Mute The Tv Or Something For A Second?" I Asked. Vonte Turned The Tv Off Before Turning His Body Towards Me And Sighing.

"I Don't Want To Argue With You Sha'Nae. I Just Want Y--"

"Ill Cut Back On Work."

"What?"

"You Were Right. I Don't Need To Work As Much As I Do. You Don't Even Work As Much As Me But You Have 6 Huge Establishments And Still Have More Than Enough Time For Our Kids. I'm Sorry For Being Inconsiderate."

"You Still Forgot One Thing Wrong About That Little Speech Ma." I Was Confused At This. What Did He Mean Speech. I Wasn't Trying To Be Preachy At All.

"Whats That?"

"Me. What About Time With Me Nae? We Haven't Had Sex In Three Weeks. When Was The Last Time You Made Time For Me? Since The Day I Asked You To Marry Me And That Was Two Years Ago. We Haven't Even Discussed Wedding Plans Mainly Because Your Always At Work Or With Your Sisters."

"I'm With You All The Time. You Act As If Your Not Always On The Go!"

"I'm Always On The Go Because I Take Care Of Three Kids That Miss They Damn Mama All The Time. Treasure Had A Huge Ass Tantrum At The Park Just The Other Day Because You Weren't There. You Want To Know Why Nate Keep Bringing Home Them Shitty Ass Grades? That's The Only Time You Really Pay Attention To Him. Know What Nivea Do Every Night? She Cries Herself To Sleep Because Girls At Her School Pick Fights With Her Because Of How Pretty She Is. She's Suspended. I Doubt You Even Noticed Because You Never Here. Know Why I Fuck With You All The Time And Piss You Off So Much? I'm Trying To Find Something, Anything That Reminds Me Of The Sha'Nae You Were Two Years Ago. The Sha'Nae You That I Fell In Love With As A Lil Boy. I'm Trying To Find A Reason To Stay With You Besides Our Kids." I Couldn't Stop The Tears That Rolled Down My Cheeks.

I'm Ruining My Family.